Mademoiselle Rachel

2008-05-02T16:53:00.002+08:00

Yes, I'm feeling so much better.
After chatting with him yesterday night.
I really cannot express my gratitude for the fact that,
he's always there to catch me when I fall
And even when my tears just cant stop flowing
while I was pouring my sorrows out on the phone,
it makes me feel so much better the next day.
I became so reliant on him.
Like I think i really don't know how,
If he were to disappear from being part of my life.
Thank you, my angel.

:)

2008-05-01T22:31:00.002+08:00

I've always pretend.
Pretense has been the only suppression of my emotions.
I'd always thought I could fit into different social circles.
I couldn't.
I failed badly last night.
Which made me feel unbearable turmoil.
Probably being outcasted would be the last thing I'd ever wanted.
Trying my very best to interact with each and every of them
But just to get really fucked up one word replies.
And being the 'transparent' one sure is tormenting.
While walking alone to the bus stop,
I was being approached by a couple of foreigners.
Which freaked me out badly.
I always try to step out of my comfort zone.
but people have to always put me down, or watch me fall.
Perhaps, I should just enclose myself up.
like forever.

Yeah, this is no PMS shit.
Maybe I'm just sinking into depression.
Soon.

2008-04-30T12:42:00.002+08:00

Indulgence.

So I'm giving tonight's party a miss.
for the fact I'm underaged and I don't know what hit me,
which made me felt like going.
Taking into consideration that there's risks
and feeling like a loser if I'd got bounced out and all,
Having the hassle to travel to aljunied just to collect an ID.
urghs!!!
Best is to save all the hassle, and stay at my area.
But seriously, I don't really have the desperation to club though
even though I was contemplating through the past few days.
Come to think of it, It's 1st of may tomorrow.
Which means, 5 more months & 2o days.
And I have all the time to club so on and so forth.
No, I'm not doing any self consoling.
It's the plain fact :)
Might be meeting Peggy later for dinner.
and maybe chill over her cribe

oh yes,
I was talking to my very adorable friend, katie
about Ben & Jerry's ice cream :

❤rachyboo says:
if my mom know i buy ben & jerry,
i think she will go crazy! or maybe she will steal my ben & jerry!! :( my family are scary ppl

Katie. fuck school. says:
then i know! you buy already, lock urself in the room, then EAT.

Katie. fuck school. says:
muahaahahhahahaha

❤rachyboo says:
ice cream melt already -.-"

Katie. fuck school. says:
ahahahaha! no no! you buy, then go home, Immediately eat.

Katie. fuck school. says:
if not, then stand by n guard the fridge.

❤rachyboo says:
like some moronnnn-.-"

Katie. fuck school. says:
lol! You la! Why so scared your Mom steals it? hahahaha

❤rachyboo says:
cos they are monsters. :S

Katie. fuck school. says:
hmmmmmmm. so what makes u?

❤rachyboo says:
monster baby?

❤rachyboo says:
which is why

❤rachyboo says:
i dont share my ice cream!

Yeah, I dont like sharing of food.
Cos I'm a greedy monster. :)

2008-04-29T23:53:00.003+08:00

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I know you're gonner laugh your ballies out.
I did too, while browsing Suba's friendster.
That's me o the left back then.
This picture was taken with my 1.3mp phone by then.
And we were just fooling around in Science lab.
You guys ought to know how crazy my mates are.
Setting the teacher's table on fire.
=X

2008-04-29T21:51:00.003+08:00

I can never be your best.

Somehow, I begin to detest Singapore.
Partially because of the high standard of living.
Which actually drives every single one insane just to make ends meet.
I understand that both my parents are not very well educated.
and they struggle to earn for the family.
Of course, work stress & politics are inevitable.
But the victim will always be me.
For one, Mom comes home and started fussing over housechores.
She does that literally everyday and today she told me that
once I vacuumed the floor, I sit there and do nothing about the rest.
Reason being was I feel freaking drained off from school
and also that there was nothing much I could do for chores.
Then she started diverting the topic to my dog.
That i didn't replenish the food blablabla.
I told her that I did in the morning and dog are not supposed to have more than a meal a day.
She looked at me not knowing what to say,
but just couldn't put her pride down and yell back saying,
one more time she sees such stuffs, she would throw the dog out of the house.
Seriously, I'm sick of her using the fucking dog to threaten me every now and then.
Like what the fuck? it's a family dog and everyone has to play a part.
I admit I do have times when I'm lazy to clear her stuffs,
but do you literally have to use the same excuse of giving the dog away?
Next, why i didnt bathe the dog? for goodness sake! i was in school till 530pm
and i reached home like 6pm and you want me to bathe the dog? what if it catches a cold?
who's gonner pay for the godamn vet fees?
Then starting cursing and swearing as usual.
which is the reason why I'm numbed to it already.

Next is Dad, he have to bug me to withdraw certain amount of cash he deposited in my bank
for the fact he had some problems with his bank card and its not functioning?
and he make it sound like I'm obliged to DO IT IMMEDIATELY
when I have to get fucked by mom when I couldn't complete the chores in time?
Like holyshit? cut me some slack will you?
Then started probing about the PSEA scheme thing for school fees.
Say that I'm not helping him but delaying this procedures.
and that saving the certain amount of money is alot blablabla.
He kept saying I'm not bothered and stuffs?
I got so frustrated and rebutted to tell him not always ASSUME such stupid stuffs.
And I just got the godamn application form ytd and he wants everything to be done now?
School work load is drowning me literally together with UTs
and PP's which I'd have to give deep thoughts for.
Why cant they be a little more understanding?

Bottomline is,
I Can never be the perfect daughter you all have always wanted.
But just another costly burden.
Sorry to say but, I cant control my tears anymore.
I need a break away from here.
SO badly.

2008-04-28T11:37:00.002+08:00

Facilitator: Bert, do you know what to put in your PPT SLIDES?

Bert: Huh?

Kai: I know I know! Put your bird there.

-.-"

Kai: Sperm banks are good you know

Facilitator: Why?

Kai: Cos it can collect interest too! sperms mutilation!

Facilitator: *Gives the weird face*

Kai: *LOOKS AT FACI with a smirk* And sperm bank feed deprived women too :P

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See how cute are my classmates?
-.-"

2008-04-26T23:19:00.005+08:00

She makes my world go WOO LALA! :D

Cutest friend everrrr. Peggy:D

❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

My classmates:)

Bert.

Yeeling

Joanne

My lovely Girlfriendsss:)

Rizza - The one that cracks me up EVERYDAY:)

LORLA! jkjk! its : LAURA :)

Pantat girl: Felicia:)

The dominant one: Reena :)

YOURS TRULY, RACHYBOO:)

p.s. that's was shan's geek spec with super high degree.

❤I love you all
:)

2008-04-26T15:49:00.002+08:00

After the long stressful week in school,
I'm just stucked at home having to coach Ryan for his upcoming Exams.
Like cut me some slack will you?
For the fact that I'm over that Exam period thingy
But yet you always make me sound like
I AM the one having to go for the exam instead of Ryan
I don't deny it's the responsibility of a elder sister to coach
and monitor his studies but still...
I need some time to breathe?
You're always not satisfied with things I've done.
But yet demand incessantly while Ryan get to slack it off.
Just what if one day I'm gone?
Like forever?

Pardon me for emotional posts.
I just don't feel really good lately.
period.

2008-04-26T00:17:00.002+08:00

A walk to remember, Indeed.
After watching this romance film,
The emotional me started tormenting myself mentally
I feel upset of course, feeling so empty in me for some time.
People come in and left as they like.
So much that I'd think I could not open up my heart anymore
not for anyone to walk in anymore.
Because, I've lost faith.

period.

I think Friday's are awesome.
For the fact classes are slack and having
bitching sessions with the usual fags.
With accompany of my Mr. Friday
but yet...
:(

2008-04-24T21:03:00.002+08:00

Wound-ly day.

Early in the morning at 8 o clock,
I'd got bitten by my dog dont know for fuck?
I think she just woke up unconsciously and thought I'm gonner disturb her
and *OUCH* my finger bleeded.
Didnt pay much attention to it though I was in pain,
So just paste 2 plasters and rush out for school.
If I'd have time, I will sure whack her HARD.
So BF made it today early! I had a ride to school - Fun.
As said, today's a SPORTS attire day.
I'd get myself excused due to certain reasons
and the facilitator is very nice :)
School was pretty fun uh, stayed back for a while to play
basketball with Warren, Jia hao & Binbin.
I swear this China guy sure cracks me up with his godamnfunny face.
And while basketball-ing, I got scratched by jiahao long fingernails,
and started bleeding on my another fingerrrrr.
I kinda hurt my knee too :(
which explains the title of wound-ly day.

Headed home with Jo
and I was sooooooooo tired I dozed off on the bus.
Oh, and did I forget to mention?
it's Friday tomorrow:)
ya'know What I mean.

2008-04-24T09:22:00.001+08:00

I'm praying hard for it not to come back ever again
it's hurting me physically.
feeling so lethargic for school.
and feeling so pain and all.
the nightmare is back.
go away.

2008-04-23T22:22:00.002+08:00

Tuesday

I'd skip school and slept till 430pm.
Was simply overwhelmed with fatigue & Stress from the
school routine 8-4 thingy.
No I did not slept late on monday night.
In fact, I slept at 11.30pm.
Sleeping distress me from school.
Or rather, a temporary escape from reality would be good.

Wednesday.
its an OFFICIALLY no-school-day.
So I woke up and had my favorite Korean noodles for lunch.
And did the usual chores I'd have to do.
I think I'd spoil my vaccuum cleaner. SHIT.
How I wish to get a maid. (ignore my silly whines please)
But frankly speaking, it sucks to be a girl sometimes
when you're kinda treated as the 'maid' of the house
Where your brother goes slacking and throwing things around; ignorantly.
Shan't go further in depth.
Anyway, met Peggy for movie.
Actually was supposed to catch the 330 movie but she was caught up with school & all,
so we delayed the day till I met up with her say 4plus?
After which shopped around.
Had early dinner cos I was frigging hungryyyyy.
Then we were sorta late for movie but yet, got the tempting popcorns.
We caught the movie - The Hottie & Nottie
Paris hilton movie though but the storyline wasn't that fantastic.
After which headed to heeren to hunt for some accessories.
I've got pretty hairbands now. Happy girl:)
It's been so long since I'd meet Peggy ever since.............................
Shan't mention but yeah on the bus journey home,
Undeniably he came popping up my head causing a little moody-ness in me.

And suck balls, tomorrow's sports attired day.
Its not that I dont like sports. but just dont feel like doing it tomorrow.
godamnsonofamotherfuckingun.
Okeh, I'm whining incessantly and hopefully my BF
dont wake up late to gimme a ride to school tomorrow.
:)

❤Au revoir.

2008-04-21T19:32:00.002+08:00

No more Monday blues.

I start to love Mondays.
Maybe because of my super cute facilitator, Genevieve
though annoying at times but she being firm with rules
actually made us more disciplined and being able to absorb knowledge better.
And my funky classmates are pretty fun.
At least the atmosphere wasnt thaaaat tensed you see?
I had lunch with Laura & Reena today.
Nice & adorable classmates I'd have :)
And I'd realise the whole class is beginning to discriminate
this 'strawberry' girl, freaking bimbo I swear.
Her hysterical laughter sends shiver down our spines.
E-W-W-W-W.
But yeah, me aint take no shite. So if she would to like annoy me,
I'm gonner embarrass her in front of the whole class.
And not everyone is QUALIFIED to call me Rachyboo okay.
ESPECIALLY NOT YOU. yucks.

For the time being, I'd enjoy katie loves company
well, come to think of it, from the time we'd get to know each other till now,
I'd treasure our friendship very much.
And thank you girl for being a part of my life :)

Talking about friendship too,
I'm totally turned off by her ignorance.
What's your problem?
By not responding to my mails & messages.
such an escapist.
You always chose to escape.
Look here, it's you who give up on this friendship.
over a childish incident.
Not me.

2008-04-20T23:17:00.007+08:00

I NEED TO SLEEP ALREADY! BYEBYE!

2008-04-20T02:52:00.004+08:00

So, it was pretty much a sisterly-brotherly day yesterday.
Had some shitty stuffs that cropped up over Kate’s side but yet,
We’d manage to meet up! And bus-ed to town together.
Alighted at Far east Plaza and the sisters did some shopping.
After long shopping hours, the adorable brothers complained of being hungry.
So we headed to Cineleisure to see what’s for dinner
Settled down at Pasta Mania and we’d all enjoySo, it was pretty much a sisterly-brotherly day yesterday.
Had some shitty stuffs that cropped up over Kate’s side but yet,
We’d manage to meet up! And bus-ed to town together.
Alighted at Far east Plaza and the sisters did some shopping.
After long shopping hours, the adorable brothers complained of being hungry.
So we headed to Cineleisure to see what’s for dinner
Settled down at Pasta Mania and we’d all enjoy

After which, we went to take neo prints!!!
It’d been sooooooooooooooo long since I’d take neoprints.
And it’s my first time taking it with my brother and my friend!
Somehow, the pictures did turned out awesome.
Next destination was to the Games arcade for the boyssss.
Walked past NUM and saw Hardy & Zane. Cute boys too.
Oh, and at the games arcade, a group of Caucasian handed our brothers with some leftover coins they had because there were about to leave.
So we sort of prolonged our fun there.

After all the programmes, we sat down outside
mandarin hotel to think of what to do.
Finally, Both me and Katie decided to send our brothers back home first.
And then head to Clarke Quay to chill with some booze and puffs.

So yeah, both of us ended up there and actually
thought of going clubbing but sadly for kate,
I’m underage so yeah, just got some sticks and booze and chilled by the riverside.
I wasn’t much whining about being underage
cos I’d pretty much enjoy my status as a seventeen now
for the fact that the older you are, the bigger responsibilities you have.
Come to think of it, we kinda got Locked in the
riverside point building and it freaked us out.
But managed to escape from the staircase.

THANK GOD.

It's me again.

Had heart-to-heart chats and seriously,
we honestly poured out everything we’d feel about each other and all and
I felt really happy that Katie can confide in me comfortably vice versa.
I was bored being at Clarke Quay so we headed to
Cineleisure to experience some of the happenings.
Had supper at Long John Silver due to our growling tummies.
HEHE :D Lepak awhile, and NR3-ed home.

I had a lot of fun. Though it had been a LONG DAY out

My Abang! :D

P.s: there's gazillions of photos not uploaded yet.
I'm stilling waiting for Kate!
upload tml! :D

2008-04-19T00:08:00.003+08:00

on a lighter note,

laura calls me a piglet.
or rather, the whole of E54k.
reason being, I slept through the first break out
until kate calls me down to food haven for lunch.
thanks to that stupid Jia hao,
everyone hears my little snorezxzxzxxzxz.
yeah, i dont deny.
I snore and drool while I sleep.
heh:D

and I think i eat alot today.
- Chicken rice ( miserable portion)
- Honey chicken
- Chicken Sandwich
- Milo
- Honey dew.

See what I mean? In RP, you eat, sit and get FAT

Tomorrow's Vivo-City with katie loves.
and our fatty brothers.
woots. Cant wait mianzxzxzxzxzxz!
See you lovelies in 14 hours time!!!!

AINT THEY ADOOOOOORRAAABLE? :D

not for sale.

2008-04-18T22:53:00.004+08:00

I dont care if the whole world would to have ostracized me.
But as someone so close to my heart,
actually spoke words like venom,
humiliating me just because of your impulsive anger.
It pierced my heart gazillion times compared to the rest.
I no longer bother how people look at me.
for the fact I'm born with this physical defect,
I have to accept reality and learn to live with it.
I'm building up my comfort zone after so much struggle I've gone through.
Both mentally & physically torment
But you're the least expected, to just destroy all of them
It hurts so badly that I almost couldnt breathe.
it's just that vicious cycle, like what Grandpa have done,
humiliating you when you were young.
and now, you're doing this to me.
What goes around comes around.
I want to break out of this vicious cycle.

Once again, I open my heart and forgive you.
for the fact, you're my mom.
and I'd still love you.

2008-04-18T09:13:00.001+08:00

i'm feeling very sleepy.
And I'm early for school today. 8:19am.
Morning's dreadful together with a cheena facilitator.
Beat that.

yawns.

2008-04-16T23:20:00.003+08:00

WARNING: EXCESSIVE PHOTOS!

*ready*

*get set*

*GO!*

Rated: Favorite Photo of the day :)

So I went back to Clarke quay to collect my pay.
After which, met fellyvin @ Cineleisure for lunch
Japanese food for lunch was pretty appetizing thou.
Chatted a lot cos its been a long time since I'd last met up with her yea?
Mr. Leongster came to say hi with his super emo hair and his weird piercings.
I got a little freaked out by him cos his voice is so darn coarse.
and we were all soooooooooooo AWKWARD.
After that went for RETAIL THERAPY.
fellyvin got 2 racerbacks from cotton on while i got 2 tunics.
and then headed to far east plaza for more loots.
Got myself new black pumps and also belts :)
After which met up with Jade for a while and then...

WE ENDED UP AT LIDO SHAW HOUSE
SPECIFICALLY STARBUCKS
AND STARTED ALL THE CAMWHORING.

p.s : don't know who still say no privacy :p

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Me & My Tutee:)

I'll miss you little imp :)
tuition will stop this friday.
I really had fun bonding with this little imp.
❤

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❤SELF INDULGENCE❤

I'm so dreading school tomorrow :(

I miss my hommies :(

2008-04-15T21:11:00.002+08:00

my rashes seems to be flaring up again.
And i'm feeling all so depressed about it.
But anyway, look on the bright side of life! :)

School was very dry and boring today.
And it took me a long long time to digest.
Amazingly, I was able to work in an all guys team.
Presentations were short and sweet.
So class ended early and completed my RJ in school.
Well, year 2 is definitely stressful no doubt.
to an extent that it causes a strain of friendship I have.
been meeting Jolee to head back home after school.
Accompanied her to CWP for a while and we homed after that.
She's been my friend since primary 5. Best friends then.
Yet, we were pretty much awkward to strike a conversation.
Mom's been getting on my nerves lately.
And I'd believe that triggers pretty much of my rash.
I'm very stressful.
I need a break.

period.

2008-04-14T23:48:00.002+08:00

seriously,
if an apologize was meant to be brought
through another person to the receiver,
I'd rather you not apologize at all.
for all that is, escalates the situation
and further pissed me off.
thank you.

it's just not my day.

2008-04-13T14:09:00.002+08:00

I didnt even know why I'd contacted him yesterday.
When I was hoping to have someone around.
All I'd ever thought was him.
seeing ambulances and paramedics,
I'd unconsciously sent him a text msg
asking him if what is his jobscope like in NS.
Unexpectedly, he replied. Which cheered my up a little.
But as usual, text msges was ended up with a doubt.
Last message from him was about asking where am I.
After which I'd reply saying I'm at home and ask if he wants to meet up.
The was no avail.
I kept telling myself to go to sleep
and dont get bothered about his habitual quirks.
But my heart tells me to wait for his reply
till 4.45am there was even a single note.
I was depressed again.
He still lingers in my heart.
So much I'd wish I could have a brain wash.

I miss you boy.
verymuch.

2008-04-12T23:42:00.002+08:00

Exasperation.

For a moment, I'd thought I would lose him forever.
The most important man in my life.
I received a called from him in the late afternoon
Sounding so serious and all,
saying that he's waiting for the ambulance
and ask me to inform Mom that he'll call back to let us know
which hospital he'd be admitted to.
My heart sunk so deep, never like before.
My mind is in the whirl of mess, thinking of losing him
made me started crying like a baby.
On the way there, I kept tearing for the
18 years of memories flashed back into my mind.
Waited for 3 good hours before I'd get to see him.
I was still upset seeing the blood stains on his shirt.
I hated him for being not careful while working.
I hated everything for what it is.

I love you Dad
and I don't want to lose you, ever.
Because
I want to lie on your laps and hear you talk to me.
I want you to scratch my back when it's itchy
I want you to bring me around for food and all
most importantly,
I want you to be with me
at least for now.

2008-04-11T23:56:00.002+08:00

Empty shell

Seeing all my friends fall in and out of love
Having someone to love and be loved,
even the least expected friend of mine is in love.
Compared to my monotonous life without love.
I'm not talking about not having love at all; but just a partner
to be around and hang out with,
who is able to bring up the purest laughter
getting rid of boredom and lonesome
whenever you're with him.
Security, infatuations and adore.
It's been so long ever since I'd felt that way.

Make me smile again like before.
someone please do.

2008-04-10T22:54:00.002+08:00

Mental endurance indeed.

It's been a long drag of this week.
and finally, it's FRIDAY tomorrow which marks end of the week.
Intense, stressful and vigorous week it have been
I'm so sick of it because it like the get-down-to-real-business thingy
when we could no longer lepak and have fun :(
Like today? We were all so rushed of time
I'd have to stuff all my lunch into my poor
intestines within like 5mins? Yes indeed, THAT bad.
Although we are finally going in depth of our particular course modules,
but I feel that it's a big leap from year 1, very different.
Could not afford to slack during meetings as it would jolly means
you're losing out to the rest of the class and
I think my class is very competitive somehow.
Especially some very very defensive people. no names.
but we'd have fun as a class uh of course:)

I'm just feeling very stress people.
with the school work and all.
Are you with me?
my family is driving me crazy
ecstatically insane.
How's that.
I feel like punching the wall.
period.

2008-04-08T19:56:00.002+08:00

TUESDAY

Oh, My hoodie arrived today! damn happy :)

School is really boring today.
Sociology of Sport & leisure. So alienated.
My faci was like a friendly giant. But still boring man.
This module is very dry and theory based.
Requires alot of background knowledge of sports
which I'd lack ALOT. Yeah, dumb me.
Met Katie for lunch and we whine and elate for today
And met Kham kham on the way to bubble tea shop
I miss this girl big time, she never fails to make us laugh:)
After which, went home with Ashley & Joanne after school.
My mates are pretty nice
apparently, we are starting to discriminate this muthafucking racist in our class.
The least I'd expect such personality. * pukes *

PEEKABOO!

I miss my W35 H Hommies :(

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Visiting Grampa.(outdated peektures)

I swear this traditional pumpkin cake and sesame paste is the best
you can find in China town! Mosque Street! :)

Random

Thursday is SPORTS ATTIRE DAY.

omfg

2008-04-08T15:26:00.001+08:00

My presentation skills sucks.
I dont know why.
I seemed to stutter and my confidence level just went *BOOM*
G.O.N.E
it makes me feel so annoyed.
and partially because of the people I'd work with
Please pray my team changes tomorrow.
like totally.
Period.

2008-04-08T10:07:00.002+08:00

Seems familiar right?
Yeah, No more Minorities, No more kate & Kham
to webcam with me anymore.
I'm a alone now.
I miss you all so much
I want to cry.

And, I hate this stupid guy in my class.
For being so domineering.
AND, RACIST.

2008-04-07T15:13:00.003+08:00

school is pretty much screwed

I was late in the morning due to the congested traffic.
Afterwhich, I'd realise I'm nt the only one late
Kai & Ju's in my team.Guy's I'd know mianzxzxzxz
And Rizal & Kai's literally rebutting everything my facilitator says.
I seriously swear she's one godamn bitch.
Her pronunciation makes us all wana laugh so hard.
Trying to fake an accent which is much of a turn off
like how she'd say msn = ms zen.
refresh = reflash -.-
deafening words and just a replica of Masturah Ismail
Just as you know, Masturah is my previous cognitive facilitator
who speaks in her so call " perfect English with all the profound words"
And her strict rules are extremely ridiculuous.
Doesnt even let us visit the washrooms.
No food in class somemore but heck.
Handphones are NOT supposed to ring at all-.-"
and no ms zen-ing.

Classmates are still okeh
My team mates for today are Reena, Danesh, Kai & Ju.
Not a bad team after all but just lack much co operation.
I'm so tired
having a bad migraine.
I want to sleep.

yeah.
come to think about it,
They'd be bringing up subjects related to skin problems.
I am a little sensitive but yeah, it's okay.
I'll be just fine i guess.
:)

2008-04-06T22:33:00.002+08:00

Once again,
I really hate moving out of my comfort zone.

Sigh.
Im totally dreading school tomorrow.
Like I miss my W35H friends alot and moreover,
I've not been having nuff fun during the holidays
when I'd spent 4/5 of it working my ass off.
Whats worst the late coming rule just makes me frown more.
My hommies been asking me to hang out.
But I cant anymore. It sorta pisses me off
cos like during my hols, no one wanted to ask me out
and like when school reopens, I get those disappointed face when I rejected them
due to school & personal commitments.

I'm feeling like all shitty now.
Just imagine walking to the class all ALONE.
unlike last semester where I'd know katie at least.
kental siolxzxzxzxzx.

2008-04-06T01:20:00.004+08:00

CLICK TO HAVE A LARGER VIEW.

My modules are pretty exciting.

- Health & Wellness
- Inclusive physical activity
- Sociology of Sports & Leisure (and this!)
- Sports Business. ( I wanna do well in this!)

0.5 grade/ 1min late.
Can i afford such pricey act?
It's time to wake up Rachel.

Come to think of it, I'm dreading school
because of this newly implemented rule
Godpa was reminding me over and over again.
even so I know he'd be reading my blog
because I'm the well known late queen.
URGHS.

Me & the cumster's conversation.

*Kh@msinaH---BaNu* says:
woah fuck man 8.30 liao la auntie report

*Kh@msinaH---BaNu* says:
like that my ass also won't wake up sia

She's one fucking joker i swear. LOL

I miss Cheryl & Sabby
cos i've nt seen them for some time
:(

nyehhh.
kental.

2008-04-05T18:06:00.005+08:00

HIGH TEA @ Pariss - Marina Square
Grandma's pre birthday celebration.

Cakes are love!
- Strawberry Cheescake,
- Coffee mousse cake
- Chocolate truffle
- Tiramisu
- Mango cake
- Oreo cheesecake ( MY FAVFAVFAV!)
- Strawberry pudding cake.

There are other deserts too!
- DIY ICE KACHANG
- Grass jelly
- Puddings
- Ice creams
etc!

Tempura,satays, BARBEQUE CHICKEN WINGs mianzxzxzx!

Fruit salad, coleslaw, pasta salad.

Peektures of yesterdays!

Oh, thats my baby cousin.
Faith. :)

2008-04-04T23:44:00.003+08:00

Brunch with katie is so much loves.
She was still late as usual, 15mins. hahahahaha.
So next time, people out there wana date her,
must be prepared to be waiting for her ogay?
Pastamania again, but me love aglio olio much much worzxzzxzx. LOL
Chatted about alot of stuffs mianzxzxzx,
from gossiping about some girls, to couple break ups,
to school, classmates and even our little cutie pie brothers!
hahahahha, thats the thing about katie.
I get to enjoy and whine with her regarding our younger brothers
and she will get to share her stories with me too :)
I feel really good having long chats with her.
And we'd both open up to each other very well.
Me love you much much worzzxxxxt katiekatie! LOL!
And we went shopping around, bought alot of facial stuffs.
While katie katie bought herself a sexy hot pink bra! hahahah.
After which, went basement to get bean sprouts for her hamster.
And we never fail to miss the pet shop.

TELL YOU ALL A SECRET!!!!!
KATIE TALKS TO THE HAMSTERS IN THE CAGE AND SHE SEEMED TO BE ABLE TO INTERPRET WHAT THEY ARE TRYING TO SAY! OMFGZXZXZXZX. LOL!
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA.
* i know she will come and kns me. lol*

After that she accompanied be thru part of the bus journey
and went to Teck whye to buy some dishes. hahahah
Talking about randomness, this girl actually texted me
yesterday night at 147am. Was totally shocked mianzxzxzxzx!

Evening, Aunt helen came over with baby faith.
So did uncle Jimmy. Faith grew alot. Much adorable of course.
Time flies.
Oh well.

Come to think of it,
School reopens in 2 days.
period.

NO PICTURES! BYEBYE!

2008-04-04T00:57:00.004+08:00

So went out with Geraldine, Zisky & Zane to town for a little while.
Had dinner at Far East Plaza - Western. Not that bad thou.
After which went to Lucky Plaza to play pool till ard 10pm?
then Zane wants to leave earlier cos he is tired.
Then Zisky, Gera and I went to Cineleisure to Stone. LOl
Went to Cine NUM cos Zisky wana find his colleagues
chatted and then left for home
brought some cupcakes for the hommies and also Jade.
She was like treating those cupcakes at birthday pressies uh.
Cos her birthday is this month, April.
Received pretty positive feedbacks abt cupcakes.
But somehow or rather, I'm sick of baking the same thing
Over and over again.
A new change of baking would be great?
Pretty much a boring evening.
oh well

Anyway, suggestions for any nice Dimsum Casual dining?
Grandma's bday this Saturday and Im in charge of planning the venue.
Of all people, the dumb me.
Period.

*******************************************************
CAMWHORE CORNER.

2008-04-03T15:54:00.002+08:00

Katie was asking me a question yesterday.
I wasn't taken aback.
Instead, I confidently tell her its over
and assure her that I'm not gonner be THAT infatuated with him; anymore.
I was glad I could move on so happily right now:)
That's what he wanted too.
and looking back on how silly I cling onto
something that has to come to an end sooner or later.
I am happy now.
no longer posting sad entries.
But deep down in me,
I'd still miss him, very much.

2008-04-02T20:22:00.002+08:00

That girl that never fails to make my day :)

So, result was katie was late for about 15mins or so?
Thanks to my wake up call eh lest she'd still be sleeping.

Phone call conversation
*RING* *RING*

Rachel: Eh, where are you now? (sounding delighted cos the background was noisy)

Katie: Oh shite, I just wake up. ( in the blur voice)

Rachel: Alamaks! hurry up lay. I wait for you ah!

Katie: Ogay. see you.

hahaha!
Had Pastamania for late lunch and it was awesome.
Caught up alot on personal life,
and being so fuck cited for school? NOT i guess.
And I realise, even though we haven met for ages,
we wont sound awkward while striking conversations.
Somehow, I just feel very comfortable chatting with her.
So she went to buy 4D for my momma and then I went to buy milk for muffins!
I took long bus journeys to Jurong east to get some baking stuffs
As I felt like baking muffins tonight! hehehehe:)
then we'd shopped around Lot1 and we got 2 pretty shorts from COTTON ON.
Ohoh, And I'd saw Aunt helen & Baby Faith at Lot 1.
She's no longer a baby mianzxzxzxzxzx! she knows how to walk!
ADORABLE CUTE ASS THANG!
went back to NTUC AGAIN cos katie wana buy eggs for her momma.
SHE BEAT THE EGG YO COS THE EGG SAME CLASS AS HER! LOL ( inside joke)
SO CUTE RIGHT! ROFL!
okeh, I had fun with her this afternoon.
Off for a jog babeh!
byebye!
See you in school yeah katie katie! :D

cya Geraldine tml!!!! and the gayboys! lol

2008-04-02T12:10:00.001+08:00

?rachyboo says:
i gt a feeling u wil be late
Katie ? yay ive got babyhamsters! says:
:D
Katie ? yay ive got babyhamsters! says:
hahahahaha
Katie ? yay ive got babyhamsters! says:
no wont be
?rachyboo says:
u this cheeken pork
Katie ? yay ive got babyhamsters! says:
meeting buyer
Katie ? yay ive got babyhamsters! says:
:D
?rachyboo says:
isit
?rachyboo says:
ORH
?rachyboo says:
better dont late hor
?rachyboo says:
or i PORK u
?rachyboo says:
lol
Katie ? yay ive got babyhamsters! says:
hahaha ok
Katie ? yay ive got babyhamsters! says:
then i fish u
Katie ? yay ive got babyhamsters! says:
:D
?rachyboo says:
LOL
Katie ? yay ive got babyhamsters! says:
byebye gdnightttttttttt
Katie ? yay ive got babyhamsters! says:
hahaha
?rachyboo says:
byebye!

hahaha. last night conversation with my best mate is so cool
But I think I will be late later on. Alamaks!
okeh, i gotta run now.
So fuck-cited to see her! :D

2008-04-02T00:56:00.002+08:00

❤rachyboo says:
CB
❤rachyboo says:
english potato taste nicer
❤rachyboo says:
can make potato salad
zackk- says:
no aus de nicest leh
zackk- says:
u dono
❤rachyboo says:
u then donno lah
❤rachyboo says:
cb
❤rachyboo says:
lol
zackk- says:
u don cbcb hor
zackk- says:
i tell u
❤rachyboo says:
HHAHAHAAHHAAHAH
❤rachyboo says:
why
❤rachyboo says:
u want come ljlj me ah
❤rachyboo says:
lol
zackk- says:
wad
zackk- says:
im nt so vulguar
zackk- says:
u nbcb

not so vulgar still nbcb. LOL
I think I have very cute friends like katie and thiam.
Who's next? hahahaha!

2008-04-02T00:27:00.001+08:00

❤rachyboo says:
ur hamster give birth ah

Katie ♥ yay ive got babyhamsters! says:
haha yea

Katie ♥ yay ive got babyhamsters! says:
aliens

❤rachyboo says:
huh

❤rachyboo says:
wad aliens?

❤rachyboo says:
ur hamster gave birth to ALIENS?!

LOL.
I didnt know hamsters can give birth to aliens.
Must be katie fed them with some alienated food.
ahahahahahhha!

2008-04-01T22:21:00.001+08:00

What color you all think its nice?
Please advice!

My choices are black and green.

Choice 1 : $290 for all colors except red, tgt with earpiece, silicon cover & screen protector

OR

Choice 2 : $318 for Red color ipodnano together with ear piece.

CONTEMPLATING MIANZXZXZXZXZXXZXZ!!!!!!!!

2008-04-01T15:52:00.002+08:00

Superficial friend indeed.

We agreed to meet up tonight.
And yesterday I was calling and text-messaging her incessantly.
Just to reconfirm for tonight's meetup.
so coincidentally, katie asked me out for Tomyum dinner.
And I was wondering if she's confirmed lest i can go for dinner with kate.
Nevertheless, incessant calls/msgs didnt even get a single respond.
Until like what midnight 2am? When I'm subconsciously asleep.
it's not the first time.
Trying to reach you and ask u stuffs through text msgs or calls,
I never get a fucking respond from you ever since.
And like when you need to ask me stuffs,
Am I like fucking obliged to give you a respond?
Dumbfuck Rachel, for the sake of friendship did I then, respond.
I think I'm beginning to destest you; really.

Fuck.

2008-04-01T01:16:00.004+08:00

THATS BUKIT PANJANG! :D

I'd thought of changing my email address.
But cant decide on which.

Related to me
1. fartyprincessa@hotmail.com
2. fartyprocrastinations@hotmail.com
3. rachyboo@hotmail.com
4. rachelovesyou@hotmail.com
5. rachymama@hotmail.com

Any other suggestions?
HMMMMMMMMMMMM.

2008-03-31T20:59:00.002+08:00

Some Self indulgence. hehe :D

Thanks Cheryl for the necklace from Taiwan :)

***************************************

Outing with Ms.Chong, My favorite bitch.

went out with Ms. Chong today for my little shopping spree.
Bought belts and ear-rings. Wanted to get haivanas flipflops but dont have my size.
The NUM guy was like jokingly saying:" Size 5 too small, Size 6 too big. HOW?"
Damn embarrassing I swear. LOL.
But I feel really bad to receive service from them.
Eh, Aunty Rachy here prefer self service okeh!.
Ohoh, I met Zane. Hahah, not as huge as what Thiam said lah
that stupid thiam loves to exaggerate things and i know he might read this but
you this cheeken nehnehpok! see you this week okay Thiam!
Zane's like darn shagged at work and he's so shy. omg
-.-"
And me and Ms.fangfang, LOL, new name for Caifang,
had some insanity fun on the bus back home.
hahahahah! i had fun with you char bor! :D

***************************************
OUTDATED PEEKTURESSS.

OLD AIRPORT ROAD HAS REALLY GOOD FOOD PEOPLE!

My dog doesnt allow me to read my magazine:(

The happy HELMET KIDS.

my TUTEE. :D

2008-03-28T23:57:00.002+08:00

I have soooooooo many things to rant about
that i really dont know where to start.

Firstly, Im damn unhappy with the racism thing going on at workplace
andand, pre-bookings are lost which infuriated me today.
Not treating everyone equality makes me detest her, yes, my supervisor
That fatass ogre looking woman
who has nervous system breakdown.
Okay, I'm mean, but seriously I'd ought to shut her with a cucumber.
But tomorrow is my last day! so tahan Rachel, TAHAN.

Next week is the relaxtion week, pushed away my tuition assignment
and I'm free like the whole day? Time to exercise and hangout with hommies! :)
I miss alot alot of people and fellyvin has to like be away to taiwan
and cherylmeow has to be so busy over her orientation camp:(
Not to miss, I'm meeting katie katie!
People like them make me a happy kid:)

Anyway, I'm so not looking forward to school already somehow
blame me for being superficial as ken said,
Looking at the people in my upcoming semester,
I had this bad premonition that its gonner be a boring class.
But hopefully things doesnt turn out THAT bad.
I still miss my lovely people from W35H.
VERY MUCH THAT I WANT TO CRY! :(

And Momma's hormonal problem seemed to relapse again
And it's pissing me off great time.
Come to live in my family for a day,
its a good anger management lesson.
Free of charge somemore.

My cravings are uncountable.
Missing my friends like fuck too.
When school is just like a week away.
thing I miss abt school is the canteen food?
Cheap and nice.
heh, im hungry.
and momma's the best to stack up the kitchen cabinet with biscuit!
baibai!

2008-03-27T23:25:00.002+08:00

Social butterflies?
I thought it would be something great to like getting to know more people..
But looking at another perspective,
People do invite unintentional bitches tagging crap on tagboards,
bitching behind other's back due to envying their popularity.
Somehow or rather, keeping low profile might be best.

okeh, just a random thought.
:)

or rather, not exactly.
life examples are excessively shown.

2008-03-27T20:29:00.002+08:00

I was having a very bad migraine at work today
My body system seemed to be failing.
And pathetically, very miserable bookings today
that fatty black hole is getting on my nerves.
Keep nagging like some old muthafucker.
Thank god nice people like Maha, Aida, Mas & Liana's around to have fun.
Spend most of the time talking to momma & papa.
I even call ______________ to talk to him! hahahaha.
Cos i was literally dead bored.
Andand, I think I'm a tiny weeny infatuated with him
Hownowbrowncow? :(
ruling out so many of the possibilities, its getting me very discouraged.
but I guess temporary infatuations should be fine?
Rachel's a big asshole because it just seemed that she get infatuations easily. * slaps*
but... okeh, shan reveal much details due to ________________. hahahaha
2 MORE DAYS AND IM OUT OF THE WORKING HELL!
Bestbest:)

Next week will be a total hang out session! hahahahahaha
lovesssssss:)

I MISS YOU!!!!! :)

2008-03-25T23:13:00.002+08:00

Somehow, I'm very prone to infections lately.
Must be sitting infront of the black hole too often.
First it was eye infection, today was throat and ear.
And i swear the medicine the doctor prescribed my was holyshite.
i dont feel well, asked to extend MC, the doctor refused.
Nice one, and I have to drag myself to work tml. Best man.
Edward kept bitching abt the people at work
and he's damn cute lah. Hahahaha.
end of this week Rachel, tahan! LOL!.
I'm glad that friends around me are making me happy.
which stops me from thinking about those unecessities
Esp my webcam buddy for these few days,
wanton puipui. LOL!

oh, i realised ive phobia about certain stuffs lately.
Like say, roaches on the bus? Today was another incident
that cause me creeping all over.
Andand people out there, Bukit panjang is very unsafe yaw
Cos there's alot of crazy shites and drunkards
hanging out in the night and I encounter one shitass few days ago.
URGHS. nightmare.

Bye.

Once in a while,
the old wound acts up.
causing me to tear in pain.

2008-03-24T02:34:00.003+08:00

I met up with Nicki and Jerome earlier on
My good ol'brothers from secondary school.
Or rather, The rebellious gang which never fails to get onto teacher's nerves.
Nicki grown buffer after not seeing him for godamn 2 years.
While Jerome's still the same as before.
Did some catch up about our personal lives.
And reminisce the good ol'past of our secondary school havoc.
Classic eh? I do miss all of the fun we used to had.
Really do. It was a short meetup because army boy Nicki
has to booked in early tml morning and I'd have to go to work.
mianzxzxzxzxzxzzxzzxz, I'm so dreading workkkkkkk.
Happy to say Cherylmeow's back.
Meet up soon soon :)
loves!

***********************************************************************

He made me very happy while webcaming.
That sexy wanton boy:)
We'll go and buy bra together someday okay pretty boy?
hehehehehhehehehe.

2008-03-23T15:50:00.003+08:00

Long bus journeys throu and fro work is not anywhere sane.
Instead, It makes me pretty sick of it.
For the past 1 and a half months, I've been sticking to 11-4
mentally tiring job as a telemarketer. And I'm looking forward
to the coming last week, which is this coming week.
And I will be out of that hell hole because of certain annoying souls.
But I'm glad I'd got to know new friends from there :)
I miss hanging out with friends and all, but somehow the busy lifestyle of singaporeans
didnt gave me a chance to have a break.
But fortunately I'm quitting work soon and I'd still have a week more to spare.
Oh oh, And my amazing discovery of Central mall at Clarke Quay is definitely rewarding.
Especially the basement. You all should go check it out:)

Outdated photos the day when we went to watch Step up 2!
:) I miss you cherylmeow:(

And Pizza treat yesterday was FABULOUSLY FANKTASTIC!

Trust me, You'll never like to face that phone everyday.
especially with a fatty black hole in front of you.

*********************************************************

I sorta miss school. Though I know I will hate school when it reopens.
But prolly, I miss the company.
People like...

All time best mate in W35H, KATIE

MY BBF. HAHAHAHAHAH :D

THE CUMSTER GANG.

AND OF COURSE, THE HAPPY PILLS, MINORITIES.

*flying kisses*

2008-03-20T23:31:00.002+08:00

Exclusivity.

I think its been a long time since I'd enjoy work as a telemarketer.
But today's been the best day after all even though the bigbossy
was actually waiting for me to hold a meeting and I was LATE.
I almost got fired. Well, Miss Late.
Janny the fatasshitmaster is not around today.
Sickening fatty. reminds me of that fat egg.
(kate & Celine know who Im talking abt uhhh? O.O)
So work's pretty relaxed with Aida around,
slacking, joking and having fun.
And i had duck rice with JAMES! woa i swear its darn goodddddd.
But was late for lunch briefing, first time siolzxzxzxzx.
And my cutieboy, Edward quitted! omfgggggggg
But I got to get his msn address from james and
he's attacheddddddd with a 3yrs relationship! some more stay with girlfriend siolzxzxxzzxz.
hahahahhahaaa. but its nice getting to know new friendddddds.
Tomorrow's Good Friday.
pretty good because double pay,
but pretty bad because I have to work! 10-2pm:(
God bless me tomorrow!
And I'm meeting my handsome girlfriend, nessa tml!
hahahaha! best best.

I miss alot people larrrrrr:(
- kate
- wenyan
- Fellyboo : sorry for not being able to club with you hor. :(
- The minoritiesssss
- Sabby
- Thiam & Tohh
- Cheryl & Geraldine

and more &more & MORE!!!

I need a break!

2008-03-19T23:39:00.000+08:00

I'm down with the flu buggy
and a very very bad migraine.
God bless me yaw.

2008-03-17T23:50:00.002+08:00

You know, I never felt this way before.
Grasping for air to breathe.
My schedules these days are reallllyyy packed.
Moreover, some people are literally ringing me up everyday
expecting me to attend briefings and go for appointments.
As much as I want to, I really have no time to squeeze.
And not being understanding enough is terribly pissing me off.
I dont know what to do.
My eyebags are utterly disgusting.
I feel like dying. URGHS.

2008-03-17T23:34:00.002+08:00

I LOVE YOU BABES :)

Somehow,
I ended work with quite a pleasant call.
And I headed to meet my 2 girlfriends, Cherylmeow & Geraldinesiao.
harharhar. What a nickname.
But they are really a crazy couple of girlfriends.
watched STEPUP2 and I think its fucking awwwwwwSOME.
Though I'm stuffed with popcorns and coke.
DIABETES MAN!!!!
After which chilled with Geraldine's friend, ZIZKY & another guy.
Played pool!!! hahaha. stupid thiam, ask him come along and he asked me to train harder first.
CHEEKEN POK!
After which headed home cos Cheryl & I were literally stoning already.
Even though it's a short day, I really had alot of fun with you girls!
Thank you soooooooo MUCH :)

Bottomline, I gotta know more friendsssssssssssss! nyehh.

**PEEKTURES SOMEOTHERDAY.

WANTEDDDD

TO MS. KATE TAN,
I MISS YOU LIKE FUCK! SO WHEN ARE WE MEETING UPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!

2008-03-16T00:50:00.003+08:00

Well, Life has been pretty great lately i guess.
Being exposed to this new system,
which makes me more motivated to work hard for my dream car.
Though sacrifices are to be made inevitably,
But why not? To let my parents live a better life in 3 years time.
When I turn 21st with so much of accomplishments.
I do admit I feel pretty stressed up in the beginning.
But I'm still excited on meeting clients and clinching deals.
It's a good exposure anyway, I've nothing to lose.
I begin to ask myself, Am I worth being paid $7/hr?
No! I deserve much more.
And nevertheless, I love my parents so much for
giving me this chance to carve out my own career.
I want to show them results.

*********************************************
Didnt go to work today,
Went to see the doctor due to my eye infection
and trust me, saturdays are definitely not a day you would want to visit the polyclinic.
I waited till I doze off on the chair. Holyshite.
And there's something here to confess.
There was this day when I feel soooo frustrated and
My mom asked me to bring Cookie down for a walk like 2am midnight,
I asked Ryan along, and he didnt want to, due to laziness.
I got so fed up, I told him that I'm not coming home anymore.
Well, I don't know what came over me. PMS maybe.
and when I brought cookie down for a walk,
guess what? that silly boy came down ALONE to look for me.
I love my brother so much. :)

**********************************************

I'm meeting Cheryl & Geraldine on Monday for movieeeeee
Happy siolzxzxzxzzxxzx!
See you babes on Monday then:)

**********************************************
Nevertheless, He's still lingers in my heart
But currently, I believe that he had just booked out from his national service.
And perhaps, I'm the last person he would even think of.
Maybe, I'm just too fond living in memories.

2008-03-14T00:31:00.002+08:00

I'm still holding on
which explains why I'm mentally so tired.
I miss him so much and I'd keep wondering,
How's life in NS for him? too tough? or too lonely?
My mind is always in a whirlpool when it concerns such issues.
No matter how busy I'd keep myself occupied,
It will come haunting me ceaselessly.
It's just like a permanent barrier in my heart.
Which cannot be removed, but yet...

Anyway, work is good.
Colleagues are fun and loving.
And I'm soon gonner be exposed to a new marketing system.
Though there's infinite doubts about such stuffs
because I'm new and not yet being exposed much,
But I'd really hope to carve out something on my own.
Who doesnt?
Thank you Mom& Dad, For being so supportive.
❤loves

我天天问自己，
我真的会快乐吗？
你知道我有多么想你吗？
就这样结束了吗？

2008-03-13T01:47:00.002+08:00

My mind is in a whirl.
I'm not 100% sure of what I'm doing
But all I know is, I want that BMW to be MINE in 2 years time.
All I have to do, is to believe in myself.
:)

2008-03-11T22:56:00.002+08:00

Work was pretty good today.
been in luck lately, high number of bookings
which also mean more money coming in.
But of course, luck wont always be there =/
been raining heavily these days.
But fortunately not when I'm going to, and fro from work.
It's a nuisance traveling during rainy weather; really.

Come to think of it, I'm meeting my Judokas tomorrow.
Weisiong & Vanessa. Lovely seniors I would say.
And Weisiong's bringing us to some place for Fish & Chips!
Meeting them tomorrow after work and they are really nice to meet me near my workplace! :)
It's been a longlong time since we'd met up.

Anyway, forgot to mention.
I nearly died on the bus today; SERIOUS.
I was having my menses cramps so bad
to the extent i felt like puking.
So just imagine my journey back home.
Squirming uncomfortably on my seat,
and what's worst, this huge old man has to like seat next to meet.
make me feel more nausea due to being so cramped and breathless.
Thanks to momma's care, I've recovered pretty soon.
You know, sometimes I wonder, what would I do when mom's no longer there :(
Because I don't deny, I AM VERY RELIANT ON MY MOMMA. :D
byebye!

2008-03-09T19:41:00.003+08:00

A simple meal with my younger brother.
make me realise how closely bonded we are.
How much he loves me; like as much I'd love him.

*******************************************************
Ryan: Jie, Eat more lay, you gotta work one lay.
Me: I'm full. You eat okay! you're growing up.
Ryan: I dont care hor. you better eat. You never eat how you work?! Later sick how!
*******************************************************

Such simplicity expression of a little naive boy,
actually brought much bliss to his sister. :)

2008-03-09T16:48:00.003+08:00

the image of you that very night,
when you talked to me about your heartfelt thoughts
and when it seemed that you're gonner crumble anytime
Will be deeply etched in my heart
I will wait for the answer.
But that doesn't mean I'm not gonner continue life happily.
Till 3months then,
I will still love you as how I'd, for the past 6 months.
For the fact that,
The Queer Bassist & The plain Jane,
it's all it takes to start.
I love you my loverboy.

❤rachyboo

2008-03-08T21:52:00.002+08:00

ABSO-FUCKING-LUTELY AWESOMO!

HELLO SABBYYYYYYYYY

2008-03-08T18:40:00.004+08:00

My colleagues!

Been a long time since I'd camwhore.
'

He'll be gone for good.
But I'd still love him.

2008-03-08T03:44:00.004+08:00

So i met Cheryl at 9pm.
Went to meet him @ Ameen to return him his cash.
After which, got a can of beer and we decided to walk to Ahmei to chill.
Long walks with Cheryl humming is pretty nice.
Aint no joke about this.
SO we waited at Ahmei for Geraldine's arrival.
And after which, Scissors paper stone and I ended up
chilling at their condo till 2am plus?
Chatted about LOADSA stuffs.
They were really best girl mates even though I'm not really that close with them.
But still, I enjoyed my time with them uh!
Thanks to you all my girlfriends!

We met up in the end.
I was walking along the dark street alone
while waiting for him It feels pretty scary.
But yet, I don't really feel that way.
Just feeling something else beyond description.
Cabbed to ahmei again and we had pratas.
But he was rushing off.
And things was never the same.
He confided in me about some stuffs related to NS.
And I feel so upset seeing him this upset for the first time.
The urge of giving him the tightest hug,
was being ridden over with the fear of him pushing me away.
I so dont fucking want him to go away.
:( Miserable; very.

2008-03-07T17:44:00.002+08:00

Tearing down my defensive wall.

Janny spoke to me earlier on while
I was working regarding some sensitive issues.
And it affected me pretty much unknowingly.
As usual, I would approach Ahcan, tell him how I feel etc.
But somehow or rather, we'd seemed to drift apart due to
his busy working schedules and that explains why I felt so hurt.
Because he was always there for me to depend on
whenever I feel emotionally down.
Not anymore I guess.
I approached Dad & Mom after much contemplation
because I do not want them to worry, especially mom.
They were still very defensive and protective of me.
And Dad told me to change a job.
But I didnt have any thoughts of changing the job.
And I feel that it's a reality that I'm born with such defect.
I have to accept it and move on with life without bothering how other look at me.
I'm a female too and it's a natural instinct that all girls wana look good.
I didnt chose to be born out this way either but I thank god for that actually,
Because I'd learn to appreciate the smaller things in life
and also made me a stronger person.
I just wish I could be as flawless as other girls are.
but sometimes, life doesn't always go your way.
Shit happens. And it's all about individual perspective of viewing it.
For me, I think I'd learn to view things positively.
Thanks to Kate who'd lend me tuesdays with morrie.
It's also part of the reason why even though I felt so down today,
relating it back to the book, I felt much serenity.

Might be going over Cheryl's place to chill later.
:)
byebye.

2008-03-07T00:28:00.003+08:00

supper with my family
is the everbest I could get.
I love Dad&Mom to the max.
Because of my weird growing appetite lately,
I was whining about feeling hungry and all,
And so we all went down for supper.
It's not unhealthy cos it's once in a long long while.
Moreover, I feel really blessed and love to have them around.
Especially my parents, who go the extra mile just to make me a happy girl. :)

Something to share from Tuesday's with Morrie.

How we feel lonely, sometimes to the point of tears
but we don't let those tears come
because we are not supposed to cry
Or how we feel a surge of love for a partner
but we don't say anything
because we 're frozen with the fear of what those words
might do to the relationship.
But now, I'm not afraid of feeling lonely,
but now I'm going to put the loneliness aside
and know that there are other emotions in the world
and I'm going to experience them as well.
Detach.

2008-03-06T22:14:00.000+08:00

*TENJEWBERRYMUDS*

*To get the full effect, this should be read aloud. You will understand
what 'Tenjewberrymuds' means by the end of the conversation. This has been
nominated for the best email of 2006. *

*_______________________________________*

*The following is a telephone exchange between a hotel guest and
room-service, at a hotel in Asia, which was recorded and published in the
Far East Economic Review:*

*Room Service (RS): "Morrin. Roon sirbees."*

*Guest (G): "Sorry, I thought I dialed room-service."*

*RS: "Rye..Roon sirbees..morrin! Jewish to oddor sunteen??"*

*G: "Uh..yes..I'd like some bacon and eggs."*

*RS: "Ow July den?"*

*G: "What??"*

*RS: "Ow July den?...pryed, boyud, poochd?"*

*G : "Oh, the eggs! How do I like them? Sorry, scrambled please."*

*RS: "Ow July dee baykem? Crease?"*

*G: "Crisp will be fine."*

*RS : "Hokay. An Sahn toes?"*

*G: "What?"*

*RS:"An toes. July Sahn toes?"*

*G: "I don't think so."*

*RS: "No? Judo wan sahn toes??"*

*G: "I feel really bad about this, but I don't know what 'judo wan sahn
toes' means."*

*RS: "Toes! Toes!...Why jew don juan toes? Ow bow Anglish moppin we
bodder?"*

*G: "English muffin!! I've got it! You were saying 'Toast.' Fine. Yes, an
English muffin will be fine."*

*RS: "We bodder?"*

*G: "No...just put the bodder on the side."*

*RS: "Wad?"*

*G: "I mean butter...just put it on the side."*

*RS: "Copy?"*

*G: "Excuse me?"*

*RS: "Copy...tea...meel?"*

*G: "Yes. Coffee, please, and that's all."*

*RS: "One Minnie. Scramah egg, crease baykem, Anglish moppin we bodder on
sigh and copy....rye??"*

*G: "Whatever you say."*

*RS: "Tenjewberrymuds."*

*G : "You're very welcome."*

Katie T.

If only the past is effaceable.

2008-03-06T18:24:00.002+08:00

Work was awesome today.
Loadsa bookings but heck, who cares.
A new-comer, Edward, looks pretty cute. HEH.
Anyway, Sabrina postponed the Sushi dinner to next week.
Disappointment.
Ryan's CA1's results got the first time, Band threes.
Disappointment.
He hasn't replied me regarding the movie cum dinner date.
Disappointment.
Food delivery is late
Disappointment.

SIGH.
So much for disappointing me.

2008-03-04T21:13:00.002+08:00

I swear NYDC's OREO Cheesecake's the bestest ever.
Better than Uncle Jimmy that's it.
More cakes pleasssssssssse.

Tuesday was a DREAD.
been raining for the past few days and it's like
so inconvenient cos I'd have to walk a distance to work.
Moreover, today's bookings are reallllllyy LOW.
And that fat Janny keep yanking and grunting away.
I mean, of course it's not her fault cos she's paid for it luh.
but still, the targets daily are really unrealistic and impractical.
And I seemed to be on sleepy drugs today.
I felt so much sleeping I'd even doze off while waiting on the phone.
Yeah, that bad. That's how deprived of sleep I am.
I think I'm getting fatter.
So i need to workout again.
tomorrow morning that is.
I want to watch movie. soon.

2008-03-01T23:27:00.003+08:00

FRIED OYSTERS

FRIED CARROT CAKE

SATAY

DESSERTTTTTTTIME!!!! :D

Sesame paste, pumpkin cakes, mango pomelo dessert

It's been so long having time with family together.
Bus-ed down to Chinatown with family
Because daddy wana get some working apparels
and I was craving for some Fried Carrot Cake:)
I swear the food there was
abso-fucking-lutely AWWWWWWWWesome.
I love times like these :)

A conversation that sets my dad laughing out loud
P.s. He doesnt laugh often/normally.

Mom: Eh, the starhub bill hor, Shows that I don't have free outgoing messages ah?
Dad: Really meh?!
Mom: yeah lor. They like got charge one lay. Cos I see the amount they charge there lay.
Dad: But did you see the minus sign below?

Everyone of us started laughing and snorting like wild pigs.

It's nice having such nice cheerful atmosphere.
I love my family. no doubt.

2008-03-01T12:23:00.002+08:00

ohgay, I've skipped work today
Seriously, I think its a DREAD going to work 6 days a fcuken week.
And I've got new tuition assignment that pays higher for only maths subject.
So I'm quitting the other one and moreover,
the new tutee stays VERY NEAR my place.
Like no need to travel? I'd just have to walk to pending road.
heh. God bless.

And about the so called full time job im holding on now
besides the 6 days a week tormenting schedule,
I'd have to work 11-4 everyday. Which means I have to wake up 9am everyday
And take the 1 hour bus journey all the way there. Holy shite.
Stressful sales targets to hit because you'll never know when you're
gonner get fired as nd when Sarah drops by,
cos she can literally just ask u pack ur bags and ask you to leave.
So I'd fake a excuse of having sore throat and she wants me to claim MC.
Holy shite. I'm not gonner waste money seeing doctor anyway.
I need a real BREAK.
URGHS!

Just another 1 month more and I'm outta this stressful hell.

think of the attractive salary rachel!

2008-03-01T01:40:00.007+08:00

That alarm on my desktop
triggers my heart.

Had a little meet up with my dear Cheryl like after so long?
It was a random meet up actually, upon receiving a msg from her :)
So like we met at Railway mall, which is the place I'd first met her.
Hahaha. I swear everywhere's so packed with people
as it's a friday night. So we ended up sitting at the staircase and chatted.
And some drama had to happen to me cos of yadayada.
*censored only for cheryl cos you-know-what* Secret hogay!
Been pretty long since I last saw her and we've got loads to talk about
But the main topic of the day eccentrically turns out to be the
missing terrorist of Singapore. The JL thingy.
Probably because her condo area is heavily guarded with securities.
Shan go further into details regarding this cos it will never end.
And i seriously doubt Singapore's security then.

So instead, we walked all the way to Al Ameen Hillview
for drinks and I had one prata cos I'm pretty hungry.
Then continue and chatted about loadsa stuffs which I cant remember.
And we left at around 1140pm?
Hahaha. Cheryl's always nice enough to wait with me for the bus
And today I've caught the last bus. HEH:)
Wanted to call Peggy along for Drinks but she refused! humph. I think you would be reading this so PEGGY! you owe me a date uh! :)
On the bus journey back, everywhere's full of guard.
Like some aliens invaded space or rather, Japanese occupation LOL! Cheryl says they could even camouflage among the bushes!
hahahahahaha. And we kept joking about the matter.
Somehow, the fear kinda triggers me.
Cos firstly, I dont wana die young, neither I wana see my love ones getting hurt.
SO hopefully, that bastard get caught really soon.

****************************************************
When I'd switched on my lappie,
The alarm rang, reminding me of his enlistment.
Probably he's kinda avoiding me now after reading the collage.
I seriously don't mean to pressure him with it cos basically,
it's just how I'd express my thoughts by stringing them with words.
But it's just a stupid assumption made by me or something.
Come to think of it, it's just 10 days away.
When he's gonner be gone for good. 3 good months.
I'll have to cope with it. somehow.
For not receiving his message nor being able to message him at all.
nyehh. I sound like as thou he's my boyfriend
and he's obliged to do it all.
Rachel, I think you fucking need to wake up.
o much for wanting things to be the same as before.
It can never be the same.
Never.

For once, I felt depressed.
so much of a loser I am.

2008-02-29T21:00:00.002+08:00

Pictures from Peggy's phone.
Timbre.

2008-02-28T23:37:00.002+08:00

you make me feel like heaven on earth.

A little message from you actually did much impacted me.
By saying you love those cupcakes made by me.
My efforts have not gone down the drain; definitely.
Also, much thanks to Peggy for dragging
2 bass guitars, 1 box of cupcakes and 1 box of collage back home.
Good job. And thanks to you, I've finally lifted the heavy heart after so long.
But the butterflies in my tummies' not gone yet.
Cos he have yet read the Collage.
Some part might actually infuriate him. heh.
But I've requested to have a date out before he's gone for good.
To serve the nation that is. 3 good miserable months.
And that fatty is out to drink at some coffeeshop with Ezra.
For god sake, someone should see how funny he look
when he's drunk. Tipsy is what he call it.
Oh whatever. Like he'd said, left one more week for him to enjoy.
I will miss you, sexy love.

Please forgive me,
for loving you.

2008-02-28T19:38:00.003+08:00

The Road I'd walk everyday to work. Nice uh? :)

I TOTALLY DIG THIS! Mantou:) Favorite primary school snack.

My pretty Japanese boyfriend. HEH:D

My pretty new friend, PEGGY

PLUSHFOOLS @ TIMBRE.
( sorry for the bad quality, cant snap nice ones :( )

Another colleague of mine left today.
Excuse being she was burnt out from this job. omfgxzzxzxz
So many people are leaving and leaving.
And I'm still there for I-don't-know-why.
But frankly speaking, this job isn't that bad. Just very boring.
So since Nadia have left work, I'd go to work everyday alone.
Mornings are really nice at boat quay. Quiet and breezy.
Come to think of it, I can't wait for pay day.
hehe.

Nothing much to rant about thou.
So laters.

2008-02-28T01:41:00.002+08:00

Plushfools @ Timbre.
didnt turn out to be as expected.

Met ken at Plaza Singapura at 6pm?
Was a really rushing afternoon.
Get the collage and cupcakes ready to be delivered.
Coincidentally, Peggy was there at PS too. so met up with her a little while.
After which, both of ken and I cab-ed down to Timbre.
And i swear the fucking cab fare is darn expensive. Godamit.
Reached there but there wasn't even a single crowd. Pathetic.
Anyway, Ken and I sat on the same table as Peggy and cousin.
Nice people actually. And at first, I feel darn screwed cos like he's gonner be darn
shock that I'd knew his sister yadayada. Order drinks and pizzas later on.
The pizza was goooooooooooooooood.
I'm glad that Ken and Peggy can get along pretty well :)
Even so, Ken had to leave earlier. So I was left behind with Peggy.
Chatted about loadsa stuffs and as the night get late,
everything quieten down. And i swear the live band there was really good.
I decided to left alone first because I'd probably need some time alone.
And besides, I dont wish to trouble Peggy's cousin to fetch me home :)
Met Reagan at Plaza Singapura, when I'd walked all the way from Timbre.
Then, dumbass Reagan wanted to go Timbre and take a look
So, we walked all the way back there again-.-"
Ordered a Jug of Heineken and he ordered pizza for himself.
Ben& friend joined us for a little while.
Chatted, and then, i'd left with Ben & friend on a cab
Cos Mr. Reagan wants to be alone and moreover, he's heading over to Mustafa for shopping.
What a weird guy shopping at Mustafa at wee hours.
I guess that's about it.
Tomorrow's back to work. And I'm so dreading it. :(

Cheerup my pretty boy.
I feel sad somehow seeing him so disappointed.
And that everyone knows he's given his best in the performance.
But still, he felt that he'd screw his last show.
I'm really bad in consoling people.
But at least, I'd really tried talking to him.
And I feel really nice having him sitting next to me in the cab once again.
He's really upset, drunked/tipsy.
First time seeing him so depressed.
It really hurts my heart.
Hopefully he feels better tomorrow;)

** Pictures up tomorrow.
I'm dead tired.

2008-02-26T17:23:00.002+08:00

I've met a girl on my bus journey back home from work.
And She is really beautiful if only she wasn't suffering
from this skin problem, Vitiligo (click on the link to know more.)
What's worst is that her face is also affected.
It sorta makes me sympathize her.
Even thou I'm also victim of some skin problem.
It makes me wonder.
Why does God create people with so much imperfections.
Maybe, he wants us to cherish the smaller things in life.

Work was crazy,
2 girls were fired and apparently,
I'm the only one chinese girl left cos most of them have quitted.
and it's undeniably annoying to have to attend to Mandarin speaking customer.
Cos did I ever mention? I cant converse in Mandarin at all?!
Oh well. I shall just the follow the flow and see how it goes.
No point planning ahead. Cos this line are rather unpredictable.

Anyway, I've found someone to accompany me to Timbre tml!
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :D
Ken's the best Japanese boyfriend! hahahahahaha
XOXOXO

2008-02-25T22:20:00.002+08:00

I feel extremely grouchy now.
My tummy is hurting so bad for I-don't-know-why.
Work was getting worst day by day
But I'm taking it easy. Thank god for the serenity.
Tuition was worst.
Coaching a Primary 5 year old girl who talks sooooooo much
and her incessants whines chipped into her tuition hours.
And I was pretty worry about her progress.
Maybe I worry/care too much.
But i feel frustrated.
I want to quit
but on the other hand, i can't seem to leave her in lurch.
Can Rachel not be a soft-hearted as she is?
I wish I could.

Tomorrow's work again.
I don't feel good.
I feel so sick of the routine and all.
Maybe I just have to take it all, easy.
AND HELL, I DONT KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO MY TAGBOARD-.-"

Like finally, he took initiative to text me and all.

2008-02-25T01:51:00.002+08:00

meeting up with OPQ and friends were really pretty fun
Even thou the journey was long and freaky
but she's a really nice girl :)
Furthermore, we've got lots to talk about
and she's really friendly and nice!:D
Had drinks at Al ameen and chatted about stuffs.
I guess he would be shocked if I'd know his sister and all
Just that, cross fingers; he wouldnt be angry.
I'm looking forward to this coming wednesday.
but also a companion to go with.
hopefully, ken or reagan can make it.
Ken's in the top list.
you know why, ken. :)

Je vous aime toujours, mais cela importe toujours?

2008-02-24T17:01:00.003+08:00

I still love him
Yes I do.

Its nice to hear him make a effort to have a next time.
Mom wants me to invite him over for dinner sometime.
Will there really be this day?
I know he's pretty busy with his stuffs right now.
Its alright.
Im pretty contented with where we are standing right now
Just as long, he dont push me away.

:)

2008-02-23T22:37:00.005+08:00

PEEKTUREBOO!

My Sec Sch & Work mate. :D

NADNADNAD NADIA

Oh, that's my working environment

DINNER WITH TOHH.

That little happy boy.

Work was utterly boring today.
Fortunately I wasn't late and that I'd had some time to have breakfast:)
Bookings were pretty little
Clients are really nasty. do I look like I'd care? hahaha
Nadia could not take it anymore due to the boring days.
Yet I'm still persevering on.
******************************

Met Tohh for Dinner at Town.
Hunted for my A4 size box at Daiso first, but could not find it.
Went to look for Desmond at Centrepoint for a while.
After which went to shop around a little or so.
Settled down at Wheelock's NYDC after much consideration of choices.
Food was not that bad. Pretty much to my liking thou.
Chatted alot and caught up alot about our social lives.
Wanted to catch Ah long Pte Ltd but the movie
all out for the timing I'd wanted.
So we'd give it a pass and headed to haagen daz for Dessert.
It's pretty amazing how much we can talk ya'kno?
as in tohh and I would never be awkward with each other
cos there's sooooooooooooooo much to talk about everytime we meet :)
Headed home after which. been a long long day for me.
I must make full use of tomorrow,
before next week arrives for workkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

*********************************************

Anyone interested to accompany me to Timbre on 27 Wednesday 6pm?
buzz me yeah lovelies:)

2008-02-22T19:14:00.003+08:00

Oh greaaaaaaaaaaaat
Working time now starts at 11 instead of 12.
Which means less sleeping time. Godamit.
I'd sure gonner turn in early.
And sad to say, I hardly had much time for my social life.
except weekends? When I'd need some time for family too.
I've made friends with some of my colleagues.
they are really nice people. :)
Been rather sick of my daily meals.
Fast food, fastfood & more fast food
I would not wana go anywhere near obesity.
But I should be happy that I'd got a job
At least I'd keep myself occupied.
and not waste time rotting at home, thinking about ridiculous thoughts.
I cant wait for pay day.
money money and more money.

Am meeting tohh tmr for dinner after work.
Need to hunt for the A4 box and also some other stuffs.
Hopefully nothing goes wrong tomorrow:)

Meeting peggy on Sunday to pass her some those stuffs.
which I've kept for some time.
And I've gained a new friend :)

Okay,
that's all for today.
Byebye.

2008-02-21T23:23:00.002+08:00

More dresses for me please?
Pretty pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeee? :)

2008-02-21T19:08:00.000+08:00

For a moment,
I hate my maternal family.
Like very much.
pissed.

2008-02-20T22:37:00.002+08:00

Another tiring day has past.
my bookings' the highest of the day.
And I'd feel pretty bad cos stupid supervisor
keep praising me which adds on to the stress of the rest.
Maybe I should stop being so aggressive.

I met Ahcan! Like finally.
After yearsssssssssssssssssss. We'd met.
Soft spoken guy but we'd get along pretty well :)
He'd accompany to CCK for my tuition.
My tutee opened up to me today.
She talked to me as though she'd know me for a very long time.
Hahaha. Cute little girl.
But seriously, Kids nowadays whine ALOT.
hahahha. she spent like 15 mins whining about her school life to me
and I don't know like how to brush her off her conversation.

I'm pretty sick of the everyday 12-5 routine.
Facing the phone and listing everyday doesn't make me anywhere sane.
I need a break.

MY GPA STILL SUCKED
even if there's slight improvement.
say 0.25? Godamit.

I'm crashing.
byebye.

2008-02-19T20:27:00.002+08:00

Tuition yesterday was good.
My tutee loves me. hahahah
Maybe cos I entice her with sweets.
More sweets to buy i think?
She's a sweet looking primary 5 girl.
any pedophiles? haha. Just joking.

Work today at Boat quay wasn't that bad either.
Was late for a couple of mins.
Must be punctual in future :)
its a pretty good start for me by having 4 customers in today
More to come tomorrow please?
And I realise some Singaporeans are really rude.
Like you're giving them yoga/pilates/kickboxing free trials for a week,
yet they push you away like some contagious disease.
Dumb shite I swear. hahahaha.
oh,

And who wants a job as a telemarketer
@ Boat quay, near Raffles Mrt.
1hr 7 bucks.
Jobscope: call customers to bring them in for 1 week free yoga trial.
Not a tough job.
Shift 12-5pm.
3.00-3.20 breaktime.
For more details pm me on my tagboard yeah?

XOXOXO
loves.

2008-02-17T21:52:00.009+08:00

BEST OF ALL, SWENSEN FONDUE.
I SWEAR IT'S WORTH $18.00 :)

Job interview day.

Visit to NSC.

On the way to Kate's place for Steamboat!

PRE CELEBRATION FOR RYAN'S Birthday
@ Swensens

Cheezy Stix. I Swear this was damn good but it makes you darn fat.

Calamari - miserable pieces.

Daddy's Fish & Chipxzxzxzxxz

Ryan's Breaded Chicken cutlet

Mine, Salmon & Mushroon Baked Rice. Not that fantastic thou :(

Momma's Black Pepper Seafood Spaghetti

Indulging in the food

The Birthday Boy

Grandpapa

Cab-ed down to Alexandra Hospital to visit Grams,
As he was hospitalised again.
Saw my distant cousins over there and they are really nice kids.
Bought Grams some cake because he'd get sick of hospital food.
And I'd remember he always buy durians for us when I was young. :)
Mom's not that hard-hearted afterall.
She always appear to be tough outside, but inside she's rather soft.
After so much conflicts between Momma and Grams,
She'd still pay him a visit and even though I'd expect them to quarrel,
Grams didnt not show any sign of hostility.
It was nice seeing both of them smile at each other and show concern.
I'd gave Grams a hug before we left.
I'm pretty happy I did that.
Afterall, he's still my grandpapa :)

Oh, Happy Birthday to my little brother, Ryan.
Though you're always a pain in the ass,
I'd still love you more than ever. :)

xoxoxo.

I'd ought to catch a movie soon.
It's so long since I'd caught one.
And I'm starting to give tuition tomorrow
Hopefully everything turns out fine :)

2008-02-17T03:59:00.002+08:00

hello world, it's 4 am now
And Rachel here is wide awake.

Came back not long from Aunt's place.
Parents mahjong session.
Today's a pretty well spent day I guess?
woke up in the afternoon to get prepared
to go over kate's place for steam boat at 3pm.
Fortunately the place was not hard to find lest I might get lost or smth.
Am really bad with directions thou;
The steamboat was really good I swear
Especially the different kinds of mushrooms!
And the soup was really awesome that we stayed at the dining table for pretty long.
Celine had to leave for some date so left me, kate and the brothers.
Theron came after and he felt asleep.
Oh, and some kids drama happened. Really funny. Shan elaborate further.
So idle around a little,watched tv most of the time
while the 2 brothers had so much fun together that we ended up staying there till 11pm
I even had second round of steamboat! :)
Cabb-ed over to Aunt's place as dad&mom's there playing mahjong.
Was really bored there. My cousins are all guys.
So there's nothing much to talk about.
After mahjong session, supper with uncle.
Mentioned about cousin Gina getting married soon.
She's older than me by 4years and also the most close to heart cousin.
Time really flies.

Okay, enough crap.
I'm getting really tired.
Goodnight. byebye.

2008-02-15T20:49:00.002+08:00

So NSC today was pretty good.
The doctor was really friendly unlike the norms.
and I got heavy dosage of pills for 3 months.
Hopefully they'd helped.
The doctor said that my condition is improving.
And I just need to give it a little more time for the rest.
I'm happy of course :)

Oh, and surprisingly, the cute guy from Recruit Express called.
Ken Soon again. Wasn't expecting the call though,
but he's got a job offer at woodlands, 5.50/hr.
Miserable sum of money no?
I didnt entertain him much anyway, just hear him through and that's it.

Dinner at Lot1 with family again.
And this time round, issue of the day was something serious yet complicated.
Mom wants to fetch Grandpa over to our place to stay.
Neglecting the fact that it would be a long term thing
and that none of us could take care of grandpa due to personal committments.
Personally, I would say no to her decision
I dont deny that grandpa dotes on me when I was young.
But the thing he did to grandma and momma, was so mean
to the extent I think he deserves his state right now.
I believe in karma of course. What goes around comes around.
And Grandpa is just reaping what he sow, of ill treating his own family in the past.
Especially hitting women. That's so traditionalist.
but I despise men who hit women and I think they deserved to be castrated.
Practically, the vote for grandpa to stay in is 1:3
Daddy, Ryan and I dont agree to the max.
Partially is we cant afford, but on the other hand,
the sons should play the responsibilities not mom.
See how complicated my maternal side are? I just hate it
pfft.

steamboat over at kate's tmr:)
Goodnight!

2008-02-15T01:41:00.002+08:00

Oh yes,
I woke up this afternoon 4pm
with a heavy head; relapse of migraine no?
Valentine was a date with a romance novel.
It was ab-so-fucking-lute-ly awwwwwesome.
No joke kid. I was glued to the novel the whole day.
But the migraine was literally killing me.
and during dinner,
Momma was being so random.

Mom: Why you not out today? It's Valentine's day!

Me: Valentine's day does not mean one must go out aint it?!

Mom: Orh. Where's that Weird Benji Loverboy of yours.

Me: How'd you know about him?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mom: You told me what. there, the one that stays at Hillview?

Me: Since when!!!!!!!

Mom: You did.

Now you see, my mom cant lie.
Obviously she intrudes the collage I've been doing.
but I forgive her, cos i know she's just concerned about my well-being.

2 week ago...

Mom: I thought you say you wana bake cupcakes?
Me: Don't know. Don't feel like baking it. Will bake it when I feel like.

Today...

Mom: I thought you say you wana bake cupcakes?
Me: *gave that irritated look*

I mean, when I wana bake, she complains that I'm messing up her kitchen
and now, she's all so anxious of me baking.
My mom deserves the award of all time contradictory personality.

And godamit,
Carmen has last min plans tomorrow and my sushi dinner is cancelled.
Just like that?! motherfarking chicken pie no?
I was craving for Sushi ever since last week?!
Cheebs. And like she didnt even bother to call me earlier to tell me until it was 11pm?!
Okay, I'm annoyed. very annoyed.
But Benji says he's gonner eat sushi with me next week.
Asked me to postpone my cravings till next week.
Sounds nice of him uh? but who knows what he's up to next week?
I'd cross my fingers till then.
cos 9/10 he's not gonner make it.
I've gotta go for doctor appointment tomorrow.
Can I not go? :(

Goodnight. byebye.

**I know my posts are wordy lately. Sorry but I've nt been taking pictures. :D

2008-02-13T18:42:00.002+08:00

I didnt know what came across me this morning.
That I'd suddenly feel so frustrated with myself.
You see how much damage is done when I'm deprived of sleep?
Emotional damange yaw.

Anyway, had lunch with Daddy.
No Tauhuey lahs, but chee cheong fan & Chwee Kueh. :)
We chatted about issues again, and somehow, i find daddy's my friend.
Crap. So he's nice enough to fetch his daughter to Boat Quay for the job interview.
And I swear it was really scary cos like early in the morning 12pm,
all shops are closed and it took me a hard time to locate the place.
it was a telemarketing job, I'd still thought some receptionist shite.
But anyway, looks really weird and good thing is, no dress code!
They say they would gimme a call this saturday regarding the schedule to work?
Does it mean that I'm accepted? I don't know.

I swear the weather was fucking hot while
I was walking to central mall to get a bus down taka for another interview.
And it's the same Recruit Express shite.
People, Recruit Express is full of shite.
Waste your time only I swear.
but fun thing is, this time round, there's 2 really cute guys who are working there.
And it happened that 1 of them was my interviewer, Ken Soon. LOL!
Shall not elaborate further though.

Went to look up Jade at her boutique @ Far East Plaza.
I swear her life is damn good. Slack and play the whole day.
Though it might seemed boring, she has her laptop to accompany her. :)
Chatted alot with her till ard 3pm?

Left to meet Katie @ BPP. We were all kinda late.
AND HUNGRY!!!! Settled down at LJS.
IT seems that we always eat at the same place-.-"
Anyway, caught up alot especially on our precious brothers.
And I was whining incessantly until I came up with this sentence.
"Read down and lie books" which was supposed to mean
" Lie down and read books"
It sorta cracks us up. :D Accompanied her to buy lottery tickets @ NTUC.
I swear the queue was darn long but we survived! Nyehhhh.
Went to pet shop and then chatted a little while,
We went off and I saw Ivan Lim on the bus! He smiled at me. HEE:)
So nice of Katie to invite little brother and me over to her place this Saturday for Steamboat?
Just nice momma's going over to Uncle's house for mahjong.
okay. That's all for today!

HAPPY VALENTINE TO ALL LOVELY COUPLES TOMORROW
HAVE FUN AND LOADSA LOVE FROM MEEEEEEEE :D
I know you all love me too right?!
byebye.

2008-02-13T08:21:00.000+08:00

hello people, it's 8:21am now and Rachel's awake.
Round of applause please?

Sigh.
I've not been sleeping adequately lately.
Its just like you wana shit; but the shit just doesnt wana come out from your ass.
Yeah, that bad.
Momma cant sleep to yesterday night.
I think I'm suffering from mild insomnia.
Sleeping pills no?
And I've to be heading down to Boat quay and Orchard later for interview
Sickening. Very very sickening.
I think I'm gonner get lost at Boat Quay
And I want my Rochor's tauhuey. Like very badly.
I'm grouchy. Very grouchy.
Reason being, I do not have enough sleep.
I'm meeting kate laters, Hopefully she wake up on time.
Thank you Ray Ray for wasting your morning with me.
Mass sms-ing lame stuffs to each other.
I'll accompany you to eat your yew tee Nasi lemak some day okay?
:)

2008-02-12T22:24:00.000+08:00

now i know why mom & dad nag at me so much

Because in turn, I'm nagging at my younger brother so much.
He's one really good kid i dont deny.
but at times, he gets on my nerves like really bad?
Kids nowadays are actually so rebellious that
makes me wana give them a tight slap on the face.
I know that sounds so like my mom.
Violence does not solve problems, i cant agree more.
In this era, one who wants to educate their younger siblings/children
would have to use the soft approach. Or rather, psychology tackle.
Violence now is just passe; it would cause more rebels.
I'm incessantly worrying about my younger brother.
yet he rebelled like some hooligan.
Giving nasty stares and crying his eyeballs out.
Complaining to momma that he's treated indifferent from me.
and so many things he just cant understand,
His academic studies is the key to his career.
I can't help but worry, cos standard of living is getting high.
I know I'm whining excessively
But, I just can't help.
big responsibilities.
period.

It's just part & parcel of life.
ohwell.

2008-02-12T15:52:00.000+08:00

lately, there's nothing much to blog about.
Been sleeping, eating & shitting.
yes, like a pig indeed.
But perhaps I should take a short break and enjoy some beauty sleep.
before getting out to work when I'll start complaining of deprivation of sleep.
today's a pretty lucky day. Daddy got me classified to look for jobs
and I rang up some, emailed some.
And there go 3 interviews tomorrow.
Boat quay, Orchard & Bugis.
Fortunately all of them are pretty near each other
Pray hard I get a job soon people :)
and yes, Valentine day's here soon. hahaha.
No dates but just another day for Rachel.
Oh, And I'm going out with kate tomorrow night for some booze hopefully.
I miss that girl :)

Rachel thinks she need to widen her social circle no?
More friends please. :)
I'm craving for raw salmon sashimi.
Sushi date with Carmen coming up. Cant wait :P

2008-02-10T21:03:00.000+08:00

A short selling post for Hairul.

SELLING PSP!!!
300 tops,can negotiate. ahaa. mint condition,
got screen protector all. modified.
all games can be given free(fake game)
and 4gb memory

tell me if you want it.
thanks.

2008-02-10T17:19:00.000+08:00

Watching the movie, The Notebook, didnt help me feel better.
Instead, it sorta made me felt worst.
But I'm happy to have watched it,
it's really an awesome movie.
Its so sweet to have such devoted couples accompanying each other till old age
not only walking down the aisle hand in hand
but also throughout the whole journey in life. :)

Yesterday night would be the last one.
Indeed, it's too much for me to take.
Crying in silence and welcoming the morning with puffy eyes.
its definitely not something I would look forward to, each and every day.
Ray was right, I should still keep those pleasant memories,
but not clinging onto something that its not working out
and hurting myself in the end.
Since he'd seemed like he has moved on,
I should too, double the happiness he has.
Because I still know,
I deserve better.
fullstop.

2008-02-09T16:32:00.000+08:00

SPIDERPIG

Rachel & Faith

CNY 2 was a blast.
The ambience was not as superficial as Day 1.
Its was definitely so much better.

Especially seeing my lovely cousins after so long :)
Won abit by playing cards and everyone kept saying that Imma lucky star?
If I am, there's loads on my wishing list to be fulfilled.
Anyway, headed home to change and then,

Aunt Doreen's place. Mahjong sessions for parents.
while we played the cards first.
Sad to say, only one mahjong table available :(
Watched this old movie, 881, I think it's really nice.
Send my momma laughing till she fell from the chair and landed on her butt.
After adult's mahjong session, brother didnt wana go home.
So we slept over at Aunt house.

Played mahjong with the teens & kids till 4am.
Gosh. I won. But we didnt play moneh. hahahahah.
Woke up 2pm the next day, to realise grandpa's here.
Its been so long since i last saw him.
He's ill. Heart failure. And it hurts to see him so breathless. yet, he's one stubborn old bull, refusing to take his pills.
Momma was still so angry with him.
Well, not that I'm mean, but if grandpa were to die soon,
I rather he die fast&peacefully, and not suffer so much like my granduncle did.
Anyway, old age and death are inevitable.
Chinese New Year's over just like that. Time to look for a job now :)

Relationships.

I've met my ex boyfriend after so long.
He still manages to make me laugh and giggle silly,
even though I feel really awkward meeting him.
Somehow, it brought back alot of emotional stir.
Tiny weeny feelings floating randomly.
but no, it's impossible between us already.
IMPOSSIBLE RACHEL.

And to my loverboy, Benji,
I would like to wish you Happy Birthday here.
Even though I know you wont be reading.
But still, I feel really tired loving you. not anymore.
I know this is really unbelievable, and it would probably
cause friends that are close to me to doubt about this decision.
I Cant promise I will forget him completely.
I will just try my best.
I've told kate before I've completely given up on him.
I failed. But this time.
It's for real.
This one way traffic's been really harsh on me.
And I really wonder, if you ever know how much you meant to me.
But like the usual question you always asked, Does it matter?
No Ben, not anymore.

2008-02-07T22:27:00.000+08:00

First day of CNY = B.O.R.I.N.G

The Chinese New Year Ambience wasnt even there;
It just makes me miss grandma so much.
Grandma, Chinese New year doesnt seems the way it should be, without you :(

2008-02-06T14:17:00.000+08:00

Alright, I've so much to whine & say,
But I'd not know where to start.

5th February
Met Wen yan Sister at town for a short while of lunch + Interview.
Got my art stuffs from art friend :)
Lunch was settled at Kobayashi(or Kobayoshi?), Cineleisure.
Been eating there like everytime i visit Cine?
the food there's not bad after all.
Chatted a little about relationships and all.
then the interview was pretty fast & brief.
Hopefully I found a job soon; Talking about that, thanks thiam for your lobang! :)

These few days are seriously tormenting the helluva me,
Extreme spring cleaning and can u imagine, I iron-ed 3 bed sheets.
I almost died I swear; Inhaling of the steam was so bad.
And i got scalded by hot oil a little which hurts fucking much,
when I was helping momma to fry some chinese goodies.
But one thing I love the most is the night market!!!
24hours opened stalls which created the ambience of Chinese New year.
It was fun shopping with momma for groceries, decorations etc.
But I was pretty amazed with the stupidity of some Singaporeans,
doing last minute shopping and the whole NTUC was packed with morons.
I was literally suffocated with people everywhere me.
And the funny thing is, they don't even know how to say : EXCUSE ME.
and just squirmed through the crowd! How annoying
Next is about the stupid Watson Service personnel,
I swear they are literally DAMN DUMB.
I'm not being mean but just imagine you in a scenerio where
you wana purchase a mascara and you wonder if it's waterproof,
and it takes them like 15mins to check and get back to you,
how furious can one be? Menacingly stupid.

6th February.
Last day of cleaning and there goes Chinese New year.
Vegetarian lunch for today due tot the praying of ancestors.
I used to hate going on vegetarian, but im loving it now:)
It's about food, food and more delicious sumptous food this New year.
Tomorrow's paternal side, Godma's authenthic popiah!
and all the others that is enough to make me salivate.
Red packets, house gambling den and all the kids etc...
Cant wait!!!:)
7th february will be on the maternal side.
Excessive travelling siolzxzzzxzxxxz. :(
But I get to meet my cousins and I'm so fuckcited yaw.

Shiat,
I've not done my facial, my manicure
and most importantly, the godamnit collage
I've so many pictures to print. But i dont know if the place is close for CNY:(
and about the cupcakes, Ive ought to get nice moulds and cake boxes
:(

CHICKEN PIE :(

2008-02-05T01:42:00.001+08:00

I kinda miss my mates in school
and it's a tuesday, no more dreading of computing lessons.
Okay, it's 1.42am now.
My eyes can hardly open.
Goodnight.

2008-02-03T23:17:00.000+08:00

Sleazy Sunday.

slept till late.
been sending resumes in and out online.
Cross fingers that I get some lucky call soon.
Dinner at Macdonalds with Momma & Ryan.
It's been so long since we had fastfood :)
After which shopped for momma's clothes.
Bought one finally after much contemplation.
Also bought a new perfume.
Momma never misses NTUC everytime we visit shopping malls.
Shopped for groceries in preparation for Reunion Dinner.
Woo! Cant wait!
Lunar New Year's like 3 days away?
TEEHEE:D

Meeting Wen Yan sister for lunch tomorrow @ town
Shopping for mascara and also my art materials.
Gonner be a short one cos I've been assigned chores to do.
Goodnight!

Once again, his message sends me smiling like a kid.

2008-02-03T15:33:00.000+08:00

Night out with Mom yesterday
was pretty simple, yet spectacular.
We've never been that close before though.
As in pouring our hearts out over general issues,
Having heart to heart talk
Shopping trip together.
Even though we get to see each other every day,
We've so much thoughts left unspoken.
Sad enough, I just find that I hardly confide in my momma.
But yesterday, the shopping trip brought us so much closer.
Even though she always get on our nerves with her incessant unreasonableness,
She's still kind at heart.
We talked bout daddy, about him being a super nice guy and all
Yes indeed I dont deny,
but proud to say that my dad's the best guy in my life.
and the thing here is, momma do appreciate him,
Just that she always express herself in the wrong way.
and she's always tough on the exterior and soft inside.
Anyway, we were so happy to get a seat on the bus after long walks along the street.
And during the bus journey, mom keeps pointing out guys that she thinks is handsome
But somehow, our preferance differ. but looks doesnt matter no?
hahahahahahaha.
Come to think of it, even the best looking couple will still broke up somehow.
this happen okay! to one of my friend.

Oh well. I miss him very much.
But I've to be patient.
Endure Rachel,
just for another 5 more days :)