Tuesday, April 29, 2008
| mademoiselle 4/29/2008 09:51:00 PM |
I can never be your best.Somehow, I begin to detest Singapore.
Partially because of the high standard of living.
Which actually drives every single one insane just to make ends meet.
I understand that both my parents are not very well educated.
and they struggle to earn for the family.
Of course, work stress & politics are inevitable.
But the victim will always be me.
For one, Mom comes home and started fussing over housechores.
She does that literally everyday and today she told me that
once I vacuumed the floor, I sit there and do nothing about the rest.
Reason being was I feel freaking drained off from school
and also that there was nothing much I could do for chores.
Then she started diverting the topic to my dog.
That i didn't replenish the food blablabla.
I told her that I did in the morning and dog are not supposed to have more than a meal a day.
She looked at me not knowing what to say,
but just couldn't put her pride down and yell back saying,
one more time she sees such stuffs, she would throw the dog out of the house.
Seriously, I'm sick of her using the fucking dog to threaten me every now and then.
Like what the fuck? it's a family dog and everyone has to play a part.
I admit I do have times when I'm lazy to clear her stuffs,
but do you literally have to use the same excuse of giving the dog away?
Next, why i didnt bathe the dog? for goodness sake! i was in school till 530pm
and i reached home like 6pm and you want me to bathe the dog? what if it catches a cold?
who's gonner pay for the godamn vet fees?
Then starting cursing and swearing as usual.
which is the reason why I'm numbed to it already.
Next is Dad, he have to bug me to withdraw certain amount of cash he deposited in my bank
for the fact he had some problems with his bank card and its not functioning?
and he make it sound like I'm obliged to DO IT IMMEDIATELY
when I have to get fucked by mom when I couldn't complete the chores in time?
Like holyshit? cut me some slack will you?
Then started probing about the PSEA scheme thing for school fees.
Say that I'm not helping him but delaying this procedures.
and that saving the certain amount of money is alot blablabla.
He kept saying I'm not bothered and stuffs?
I got so frustrated and rebutted to tell him not always ASSUME such stupid stuffs.
And I just got the godamn application form ytd and he wants everything to be done now?
School work load is drowning me literally together with UTs
and PP's which I'd have to give deep thoughts for.
Why cant they be a little more understanding?
Bottomline is,
I Can never be the perfect daughter you all have always wanted.
But just another costly burden.
Sorry to say but, I cant control my tears anymore.
I need a break away from here.
SO badly.
?Mademoiselle Rachel