Friday, March 07, 2008
| mademoiselle 3/07/2008 05:44:00 PM |
Tearing down my defensive wall.Janny spoke to me earlier on while
I was working regarding some sensitive issues.
And it affected me pretty much unknowingly.
As usual, I would approach Ahcan, tell him how I feel etc.
But somehow or rather, we'd seemed to drift apart due to his busy working schedules and that explains why I felt so hurt.Because he was always there for me to depend on
whenever I feel emotionally down. Not anymore I guess. I approached Dad & Mom after much contemplation
because I do not want them to worry, especially mom.
They were still very
defensive and protective of me.
And Dad told me to change a job.
But I didnt have any thoughts of changing the job.
And I feel that it's a reality that I'm born with such defect.
I have to accept it and move on with life without bothering how other look at me.
I'm a female too and it's a natural instinct that all girls wana look good.
I didnt chose to be born out this way either but I thank god for that actually,
Because I'd learn to appreciate the smaller things in lifeand also made me a stronger person.
I just wish I could be as flawless as other girls are.
but sometimes, life doesn't always go your way.
Shit happens. And it's all about individual perspective of viewing it.
For me, I think I'd learn to view things positively.
Thanks to Kate who'd lend me tuesdays with morrie.It's also part of the reason why even though I felt so down today,relating it back to the book, I felt much serenity. Might be going over Cheryl's place to chill later.
:)
byebye.
?Mademoiselle Rachel