Tuesday, November 06, 2007
| mademoiselle 11/06/2007 02:31:00 PM |
whine oh whine.Have I ever told you how much I detest myself?
For being sucha weakling -
softhearted?
Building up a strong facade,
Yet, I flustered when I receive a text message from him yesterday,
asking if I wanna meet up with him.
Its been a month since I last met him.
5th Oct - Performance by plushfools @ Plaza Singapura Atrium. - ACRES.
Yes that's right.
A MONTH. After losing contact for month, he suddenly asked for a meetup
But as usual, he always build hopes in me, and crash them all.
So I didn't got to meet him in the end.
thou wanting to know how he's doing and all.
Somehow or rather, I'd got used to to it.
But I couldn't sleep at all, throughout last night.
Images of the past keep reoccurring in my mind.
and i fucking swear, my heart felt so clenched.
its' haunting me.
On the other hand,
Will's been a pretty nice companion lately.
That silly guy has been repeating his 'thank you (s)'
and been trying real hard to ask me out for dinner.
I'm still contemplating whether to meet him or not.
Because after the previous incident,
I'd lose my faith. my faith in meeting someone new again.I miss you benji,I really do.
?Mademoiselle Rachel