Wednesday, August 15, 2007
| mademoiselle 8/15/2007 08:46:00 PM |
Misery.
well i was browsing through her blog
and i read her entry on her bf being over paranoid and stuffs.
recalling how sweet was her previous post saying loves to her bf and stuffs.
and now all were nothings but quarrells & mentioning breakups.
It was pretty much a misery to see such sweet lovers turned bitter.
All thought were racing through my mind.
wondering does love only brings misery?
Seeing Sabby so crestfallen after her so called"first relationship"
wishing he could call to ask how have you been,
wondering how he's doing but no longer have the courage to ask.
getting so perked up over the slightest word he said.
I cant remember the first time I was heartbroken anymore.
Been through so much and I'm pretty sick of it.
I can just jump into any relationship now and wait for that guy to break up with me
and I did just
smile and say :"alright then! take care:)"
how sadist uh?
Was on the phone with xiang last night and telling him
how i really felt regarding that issue and just bombarded him with a chunk of mixed emotions.
then he popped the question
:"How well do you know him to actually commit urself with him?"i was stunned for the second not knowing how to respond.
perhaps its too fast for me to just develop so called 'feelings' for him.
but on the other hand, I had different thoughts.
I feel that I dont have to actually know someone to get to a relationship with him. As long there's chemistry, the rest of the time spend together in relationship can be used to explore each other's interest etc.maybe I'm just being too naive.
ohwells. i wonder what's gotten over me.
been thinking so much lately.
I felt so sick of seeing people trying so hard to stand up strong once again.
but yet being crestfallen another second.
Sometimes, I do wonder.
God create humanity to love each other.
but yet why did he sent Cupid to make some of them so heartbroken?
I think he should just send Cupid to
HELL.okeh.
This entry's pure random:)
Anyway. I'd love to thank Mr. Bassist for his company lately. making me feel different; special. I'm missing you now BOMBOM :x
?Mademoiselle Rachel