❤rachel says:
u know like i feel so sad. i miss him to the extent i can even dream of him. and its like. i weaped at some nights. cos everyday in school, all i ever hope was to take a sneak peek at him. just a glance will do. it will really brightens my day like alot. but the more i wish, i see no him. and its like i just wana seek forgiveness. for that how shameless and ugly i was, to get drunked that night and ask him to send me home.

❤rachel says:
im so hurt felly. so much that its making me feel so lopsided.

❤rachel says:
oh well. guess ur busy anyway. sigh. sorry to bother u.

♡ h e l l o l o v e says:
hmmm

♡ h e l l o l o v e says:
since he has alrdy done that

♡ h e l l o l o v e says:
u can only move on. since u know its hard to gain forgiveness why shld u persist

♡ h e l l o l o v e says:
at the end of it all, you'll be the only one who's suffering

♡ h e l l o l o v e says:
and him? he has already moved on long ago.

♡ h e l l o l o v e says:
without you.

❤rachel says:
but i just wana talk to him u know. like i just really wish. we could be friends. i feel really very upset.

♡ h e l l o l o v e says:
but if u know its not possible and he alrdy shown u that it IS impossibe

♡ h e l l o l o v e says:
then forget it rachel

❤rachel says:
its hard. so much of those memories being brought up. and its ceaseless my dear.

❤rachel says:
its hard. really

❤rachel says:
and now. im like feigning some other person to actually talk to him on msn

♡ h e l l o l o v e says:
and what do u gain out of it?

❤rachel says:
at least. comfort.

♡ h e l l o l o v e says:
when u set back into reality, does he actually know tht you're the one who talked to him? no he dont.

❤rachel says:
i dunno. i know its frigging childish of me. but its jus how much i yearn u see.

♡ h e l l o l o v e says:
what sort of comfort can u get from this?

♡ h e l l o l o v e says:
for that short while? and in the end, u realise that u still haven really talk to him

❤rachel says:
i dunno felly

❤rachel says:
i dunno what to do. its bugging me so much.