Im so struggling with all these betrayals.
and it sucked big time.
Its never okay Felix.
It will never be.
All u did was to trust michelle. and never hear my side of story.
dont tell me the "you will always be my favorite hello and hardest goodbye"
is just a msg u sent me when ur drunk.
and who doesnt know how reliable words are from a drunkard
i was drunk before. and i did what u exactly did last night
I so hate you for making me cry ceaselessly these days.
When i so have to put on a facade in front of my friends
and behind them i was instantly weeping.
I cried for the sake u never trust me, making me felt like a toy.
u never did put an effort in working things out
and ur always not wanting to meet up to talk things out.
ur escaping from reality! not me!
Message from Felix
20.05.07 5.48am
I am sorry if i have hurt u... i am really really sorry..
Message from Felix
20.05.07 10.28am
Pls dont say that. we were happy once...but so many unhappy things happened in such a short time... Do u think we can even last? facing so much problems.. I din know u know me thru darrell and because of previous problem from and this... me and darrell are now not on talking terms. His my 12 yrs buddy.. u know how bad i feel anot? now his group outside re all calling me a bastard and stuffs. i had no choice but to leave the group do u know that? i feel bad
Message from Felix
20.05.07 10.42am
Sam is only my good friend and it just so happened that no one bothers to listen to my side of the story and i dont really bother explaining myself already... I am really very troubled now... so i dont wish to drag it on..I am not extraodinary good looking and i club frequently and i always put friends before gf. I dont see a reason u go liking someone like me.. Just to tell u honestly i will make a good friend but not a good bf. Just ask my girlfriends around me.. they will know. So i really hope you can really understand my plight. And i really hope u do
Message from Felix
20.05.07 10.47am
I know. okay can we like start all over again. we'll start from being friends?can we?
Message from Felix
20.05.07 10.52am
I am sorry
Message from Felix
20.05.07 11.01am
alright. All i can hope now is that you'll be able to find ur missing star and i will be most glad to gaze the stars with you again.Just of a different status
Message from Felix
20.05.07 3.57am
Ha. i dont think its necessary... since u already found urself a new boyfriend right? i wish u all the best.
my doubts. (from the highlighted words)
1.If u really love a person,would u even bother if u both would last?
2. U sure u dunno that i know u thru darrell? i think thats bullshit.
3. Do i look like i go for appearance when i find love?
4. If u love somebody, would u not make an effort to change for her?
5. Start all over again? what are the possibilities of being tgt again? it will never feel e same
6. Gaze the stars with me of a different status? Im sorry im not so free like u r.
7. ur sorry? why not i try castrating u and say im sorry?
8. Found myself a new boyfriend? its just a illogical statement and if ur wise enough. u should know this statement is not true neither reliable.
Im really sorry to say this but.
ITS ALL JUST BULLSHIT
its been ages since i been so mean.
thanks for unleashing the wildness in me.
?Mademoiselle Rachel