Friday, May 11, 2007
| mademoiselle 5/11/2007 05:36:00 PM |
i just woke up.
its 450pm. missed school. missed the same module again.
Berl was telling me i might get blacklisted.
and when i ask cousin, she said i might get warning letter.
GREAT.
I don't know why I just felt so sick of school. physically and mentally exhausted from everything
in fact im nt the only one feeling that way.
I hope cheryl's feeling better now.
at least she has got HAN there for her.
me?
hah. im just another greatest fool on earth.
i bet lionel migh be disgusted with who i am.
for the fact he's nt msg-ing me now and stuffs.
I know what he wanted to ask. about my condition.
but he just kept mum. and im sick of telling people again & again abt my condition.
Mom & Dad didnt gave me a lashing today. Instead all was quiet.
Im no longer their baby girl.
I can never do them proud.
Im doing all those foolish acts that i thought id never wana do in my life.
I guess lionel's right.
Rachel's nothing
she's just a disappointment.
I just need someone here.
but whenever that thought cross my mind
Mian han's word flashed across me.
" I cant always be there for you"
and i just felt thousand arrows piercing thru me.
?Mademoiselle Rachel