Sunday, April 22, 2007

mademoiselle 4/22/2007 10:45:00 PM

life moves on


oh great. on the way to work. was listening to that song again
which doubles my emo-ness.
cos scenerios of us being tgt pops up in my mind again
i began tear-ing. holy shit i did that in public
i cried for the fact that he actually knows that i yearned to be love.
but yet. came into my life and rip my world apart after loving me for that moment
and now. i have to crawl up again.
the setback to me was priceless.
i wasnt really upset. neither i want to cry
but god knows why, my heart seems like its being pricked by thousand needles which send me on the verge of tears.
i thought working would keep me distracted.
whats worst Tina started talking abt her bf calling her "baby"
which he did in the past. and my mood sank -again-
next was abt this push cart in front of my boutique, there's this couple being so sweet and all
my heart sank like how the titanic did.
so while i went to the store to get a drink.
i scalded my hand. yay-ness
colleagues all made a big hooha abt my scalded hand.
but seriously. i feel no pain at all.
and the song : Way back into love rubs salt onto my wound.
ohwell. skipp that
skip all the emo-ness in me
tmr's a start to a new week. and i shall be a fresh new rachel:)
cousin's fetching me tmr! hurrays. and i have to see that cedric ass again.
hope my grades for this coming week would be better.
Ytd Jerome was like:" hey rachel, seriously but no offence. that guy looks like crap! and he's blog shows how emo he can be. and talking abt death. he should be dead by now!"
i literally fucked him upside down for his comment
i just felt defensive for that moment.
outta sudden. i dunno why
and i don't go for guy by looks. bottomline: personality stands.
felly still knows me the best
she was saying:" Rachel. stop putting up a front. i know ur jus acting to be alright. but deep inside.. ya.."
and im like: " oh im fine felly."
do u really think im fine?
any idea how trashed i am?
i dunno how dumb can i be. to get so over with this guy i barely know less than a week, and get tgt with him for only 2 days.
yet my heart felt so pierced like it nv felt before.
im nt exaggerating. but im really feeling that.
but. does he even bothers? it don't matter no more aint it?
so now all i can do its to climb up slowly. praying nt to fall into any love pit anymore and get myself wrecked.
ill be just fine. i guess.






i miss you calling me baby
i miss you holding my hand
i miss you tickling me.
i miss you fondling my hair
i miss your hugs
i miss your kiss
i miss you walking with me thru the rain
i miss your accompany
i miss your voice
i miss your LOVE.


i miss everything about you. but do you?

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