Wednesday, August 02, 2006

mademoiselle 8/02/2006 09:53:00 PM

im no longer isolated.
ive found da group of frens i could be in.
and i actually realised something mortifying.
my best enemy would be my close friend.
but on da other hand, my close fren is someone dat i find very hypocrite. fake.phoney.and she seems to be hiding someting from me. and da hatred.
is jus alot of mixed up emotions in me dat are hard to be expressed thru words.
sometimes i really wonder. what's da world coming to.
everytime i walk alone on da streets. i often wonder. what are true friends for?
i could find no one to trust. no one to confide to.
and i guess dats life. should not trust anyone at all.
she proved it. a secret dat was supposed to be kept she exposed it to someone else.
i was really in dismay whn i heard bout it. its like da second time it happened.
BETRAYAL.
she's always whining. not knowing how fortunate she is.
it jus makes me realise its jus da desires of humans dat makes em want more and not being satisfied. im satisfied. not really. but im learning to let go.
cos its only health, peace and safety is all i want for people around me.
tis struck me whn my mom g0t admitted today.
i was stunned cold. da fear of losing someone close to me jus seems to mortifying. and i dun wana regret for nt treasuring my closed one. like what happened to me and my beloved grandma. i miss her. sure i do.
im worried for mom. and its jus a mask im wearing dat carries a smile along with me da whole day in school.
no one know how i feel. andAnd it feels so bad.tears jus streamed down my eyes secretly. and i wana let her know. its not only ur suffering. everyone else is.
is jus how u cope with it.
learn to tink non da bright side of life. and dats wad ive been trying to do=)
my guy fell ill too. and im reeally worried bout him. its jus makes me feel guilty dat i cant b there to take care of him.
i really wan to. and he sees no sincerity in me. well its fine. cos im conscious of what i feel. and wad i do.
life's not that bad after all.
i jus wana em to be safe.healthy and happy.
dats all i wish for.

i know u hate me.
i can sense it. da way i talk to u.
da response i get from u explains all.
if u reali hate me. confront me.
dun hide it. cos its making me SICK!

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