Sunday, March 26, 2006
| mademoiselle 3/26/2006 12:20:00 AM |
its over. i guess its reali over. in reality it is. but n0t in my heart
i huf yet let him go yet.
guess jus let time pass and wipe him outta my life
bc0s im reali to0 tired of clinging to tis relati0nship myself. all al0ne. and i cant take it anim0re. a relati0nship is supp0se toinvolve tw0 parties.
but he projects an image of cant be bothered by n0t callin n0r sms me f0r s0me time.
i reali duno wads wr0ng. searching f0r da answer but he nv cho0se to tell me how he feels
causing me makin wild guesses and whn i tink of s0meting negative he wud ign0re me. makin me feel dat im makin a fo0l outta myself and tink tat im always in da wr0ng.
sigh~ im so tired.
he nv n0es how much burden i huf to carry, as da eldest child in da family.
was alreADY so stressed in scho0l, family cha0s and all s0rts of n0nsense has already caused me to be so emaciated till i dun wish to m0ve on anim0re.
tinkin dat ive f0und him, childho0d sweetheart, can be there f0r me whn i need him.
but all these seems so wr0ng. it didnt turn out as expected.
i dun wish to let him go. i reali dun. but feelin unl0ved yet aband0ned reali sucks.
i rather lead my s0litary life like i used to.
sigh~ i tink im able to get over it so0n. time will heal all wounds.
pe0ple feel dat im happy after da breakin up. but they didnt felt da inner side of me.
being so sick at times and so heartbroken. .............
i jus wna let him n0e. that i appreciate da day 14.02.06 da tings he gave me and da l0ve he sh0w me dat day. wud appreciate him finding time to accompany me even though he so lazy like a pigg:) l0ls:)
and i wud rmb every single ting he marks in me.
im mem0ries of our l0ve,
raym0nd and rachel 14.02.06 - 28.03.06
i wud wana be back wif u. i reali do. but its jus up to u.
i l0ve u babby.
?Mademoiselle Rachel