Her Farty Procrastinations.

Friday, May 02, 2008

mademoiselle 5/02/2008 04:53:00 PM

Yes, I'm feeling so much better.
After chatting with him yesterday night.
I really cannot express my gratitude for the fact that,
he's always there to catch me when I fall
And even when my tears just cant stop flowing
while I was pouring my sorrows out on the phone,
it makes me feel so much better the next day.
I became so reliant on him.
Like I think i really don't know how,
If he were to disappear from being part of my life.
Thank you, my angel.

:)

Thursday, May 01, 2008

mademoiselle 5/01/2008 10:31:00 PM

I've always pretend.
Pretense has been the only suppression of my emotions.
I'd always thought I could fit into different social circles.
I couldn't.
I failed badly last night.
Which made me feel unbearable turmoil.
Probably being outcasted would be the last thing I'd ever wanted.
Trying my very best to interact with each and every of them
But just to get really fucked up one word replies.
And being the 'transparent' one sure is tormenting.
While walking alone to the bus stop,
I was being approached by a couple of foreigners.
Which freaked me out badly.
I always try to step out of my comfort zone.
but people have to always put me down, or watch me fall.
Perhaps, I should just enclose myself up.
like forever.

Yeah, this is no PMS shit.
Maybe I'm just sinking into depression.
Soon.

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

mademoiselle 4/30/2008 12:42:00 PM

Indulgence.

So I'm giving tonight's party a miss.
for the fact I'm underaged and I don't know what hit me,
which made me felt like going.
Taking into consideration that there's risks
and feeling like a loser if I'd got bounced out and all,
Having the hassle to travel to aljunied just to collect an ID.
urghs!!!
Best is to save all the hassle, and stay at my area.
But seriously, I don't really have the desperation to club though
even though I was contemplating through the past few days.
Come to think of it, It's 1st of may tomorrow.
Which means, 5 more months & 2o days.
And I have all the time to club so on and so forth.
No, I'm not doing any self consoling.
It's the plain fact :)
Might be meeting Peggy later for dinner.
and maybe chill over her cribe

oh yes,
I was talking to my very adorable friend, katie
about Ben & Jerry's ice cream :

❤rachyboo says:
if my mom know i buy ben & jerry,
i think she will go crazy! or maybe she will steal my ben & jerry!! :( my family are scary ppl

Katie. fuck school. says:
then i know! you buy already, lock urself in the room, then EAT.

Katie. fuck school. says:
muahaahahhahahaha

❤rachyboo says:
ice cream melt already -.-"

Katie. fuck school. says:
ahahahaha! no no! you buy, then go home, Immediately eat.

Katie. fuck school. says:
if not, then stand by n guard the fridge.

❤rachyboo says:
like some moronnnn-.-"

Katie. fuck school. says:
lol! You la! Why so scared your Mom steals it? hahahaha

❤rachyboo says:
cos they are monsters. :S

Katie. fuck school. says:
hmmmmmmm. so what makes u?

❤rachyboo says:
monster baby?

❤rachyboo says:
which is why

❤rachyboo says:
i dont share my ice cream!

Yeah, I dont like sharing of food.
Cos I'm a greedy monster. :)

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

mademoiselle 4/29/2008 11:53:00 PM

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I know you're gonner laugh your ballies out.
I did too, while browsing Suba's friendster.
That's me o the left back then.
This picture was taken with my 1.3mp phone by then.
And we were just fooling around in Science lab.
You guys ought to know how crazy my mates are.
Setting the teacher's table on fire.
=X

mademoiselle 4/29/2008 09:51:00 PM

I can never be your best.

Somehow, I begin to detest Singapore.
Partially because of the high standard of living.
Which actually drives every single one insane just to make ends meet.
I understand that both my parents are not very well educated.
and they struggle to earn for the family.
Of course, work stress & politics are inevitable.
But the victim will always be me.
For one, Mom comes home and started fussing over housechores.
She does that literally everyday and today she told me that
once I vacuumed the floor, I sit there and do nothing about the rest.
Reason being was I feel freaking drained off from school
and also that there was nothing much I could do for chores.
Then she started diverting the topic to my dog.
That i didn't replenish the food blablabla.
I told her that I did in the morning and dog are not supposed to have more than a meal a day.
She looked at me not knowing what to say,
but just couldn't put her pride down and yell back saying,
one more time she sees such stuffs, she would throw the dog out of the house.
Seriously, I'm sick of her using the fucking dog to threaten me every now and then.
Like what the fuck? it's a family dog and everyone has to play a part.
I admit I do have times when I'm lazy to clear her stuffs,
but do you literally have to use the same excuse of giving the dog away?
Next, why i didnt bathe the dog? for goodness sake! i was in school till 530pm
and i reached home like 6pm and you want me to bathe the dog? what if it catches a cold?
who's gonner pay for the godamn vet fees?
Then starting cursing and swearing as usual.
which is the reason why I'm numbed to it already.

Next is Dad, he have to bug me to withdraw certain amount of cash he deposited in my bank
for the fact he had some problems with his bank card and its not functioning?
and he make it sound like I'm obliged to DO IT IMMEDIATELY
when I have to get fucked by mom when I couldn't complete the chores in time?
Like holyshit? cut me some slack will you?
Then started probing about the PSEA scheme thing for school fees.
Say that I'm not helping him but delaying this procedures.
and that saving the certain amount of money is alot blablabla.
He kept saying I'm not bothered and stuffs?
I got so frustrated and rebutted to tell him not always ASSUME such stupid stuffs.
And I just got the godamn application form ytd and he wants everything to be done now?
School work load is drowning me literally together with UTs
and PP's which I'd have to give deep thoughts for.
Why cant they be a little more understanding?

Bottomline is,
I Can never be the perfect daughter you all have always wanted.
But just another costly burden.
Sorry to say but, I cant control my tears anymore.
I need a break away from here.
SO badly.

Monday, April 28, 2008

mademoiselle 4/28/2008 11:37:00 AM

Facilitator: Bert, do you know what to put in your PPT SLIDES?

Bert: Huh?

Kai: I know I know! Put your bird there.

-.-"

Kai: Sperm banks are good you know

Facilitator: Why?

Kai: Cos it can collect interest too! sperms mutilation!

Facilitator: *Gives the weird face*

Kai: *LOOKS AT FACI with a smirk* And sperm bank feed deprived women too :P

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See how cute are my classmates?
-.-"